the one reason ❤ j.s & d.b

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

*trigger warning*

Dianne's POV

It's that time again. Tonight is the live show and I'm actually nervous for tonight even though joe and I have got the routine completely down.

If I'm being honest, I'm worried the same thing will happen tonight as it did last week and I really don't want Joe, or anyone else for that matter to ask questions again.

I'm so anxious that I have woken up at 5:30 and I cannot get back to sleep. We don't need to be up for another 2 and a half hours. I turn on my side, after staring at the celling for what seems like forever but in reality, it was only 3 minutes and I see Joe there. He looks so peaceful. Ever since the other night, I have stayed over at his house. Maybe it's because we have gotten closer since spending the night together, maybe it's because he wants to make sure I eat. He thinks I don't know that's what he is trying to do but trust me, I can tell.

I love the way his face has a small little frown when he sleeps, he looks like he is in deep concentration. I never would have thought that after Anthony, I would have feelings like I have for him as quick as I have. I don't think I would call it love just yet, but I am definitely falling for him. I just wonder how people will feel about him and I together. Joe has told me that I am his first proper relationship the whole time he has been on Youtube which kind of scares me. How are his viewers going to react when they find out we are together? Will they like me? Are we ever going to make our relationship public? Ahh these thoughts are also what has overcome my mornings ever since we started dating.

Deciding that staying in bed and thinking about this stuff was going to make me feel worse, I decided it was time to get up and do something. With it now being 5:45am, I get up and get dressed in some workout clothes that I had left at Joes for training. I go to the bathroom and brush my teeth, and after putting my hair up in a messy ponytail. I walk back out to Joe's room and grab my phone and my headphones and walk downstairs. After slipping my trainers on, I grab the spare key to Joe's place and head out on a run.

There is something quite refreshing about running in the morning when it is still somewhat dark and there is no one out. It takes my mind away from my negative thoughts and I feel like I could run for hour and hours, just listening to my small music selection and exploring the empty streets of London.

I am so lost in the peacefulness of my run that I don't even notice or hear the notifications that have been coming through on my phone through my headphones until it starts ringing in my ear. I stop running to pull the phone out seeing Joe's contact on the screen, so I answer the call

"Good-morning love, what's up...", I begin,

"Dianne where the hell are you?" joe interrupts, concern evident in his voice,

"I couldn't sleep so I decide to get up and go on a run, why?"

"Gosh why, its only 6:45 in the morning, and I woke up and you weren't next to me and I freaked out because I couldn't find you anywhere in the house..." he begins to ramble,

"okay, okay hold on, I'm on my way back ill speak to you soon" I say and hang up on him. I didn't realise that he'd get so worried about me not being there, what did he think I'd do?

I make my way back to Joe's and as soon as I begin to put they key in the door opens and he instantly embraces me in a hug,

"Joe, baby? What is going on?" I question, relaxing into his hug,

"I don't know Dianne, you just weren't there when I woke up like usual and It freaked me out because you didn't say where you were going so I thought you left me" Joe explains as he pulls back and looks me deep in the eyes,