Seventeen Angst

I Never Loved You- Mingyu

Y/n POV

I could still remember everything that happened to us.

From how we became strangers to friends and friends to best friends.

But we were both young back then.
We were both so carefree and happy, we never thought about our future or the negative possibilities that can happen to our life.

That everything was just nothing and we wouldn't give a fucc about it. Until I fell inlove with you. My bestfriend. Even if you told me you just see me nothing more than a bestfriend. I can't blame you, it's my fault anyways.

I felt so stupid... I fell inlove with you, even if I kept telling myself not to. I was still too blinded by the fantasies that one day you might love me as much as I love you.

It never happened though, because you already fell for someone else. And what's worst is that you fell inlove with someone close to me. My other bestfriend.

At that time, when you told her the words that I wanted you to say to me, I broke down. I couldn't take it. My bestfriend whom I told everything I felt for you, the one whom  thought would support me till the very end

I was upset, I wanted to be mad at both of you but its not your fault. I was the one who fell inlove with you even if I knew it would be this painful, it was me whom introduced you to each other because I thought both of you will be great friends and will support, comfort and make me happy whenever Im sad.

Now, as you two are in a relationship you both start forgetting me. It pains me ofcourse I'm not a stone or a robot, I wished I was though so that I wouldn't feel this way.

So I thought you wouldn't need me, you have each other anyways. So I'll leave.

I'm now here at the airport, booking my flight to New York. It's time for me to leave and move on. To live on my own without you.

But then I questioned myself...

If I never loved you would I feel this way?
If I never loved you will I still leave?
If I never loved you would you love me?

I'm now leaving everything here, I will continue my life without you and start a new.

If I never loved you will I be happy?

The end

Thanks for reading... It's my first time writing so I deeply apologized if it's not that good lol. Im making a part two if you want guys...