Seventeen Angst

All Is Just A Dream- Seungcheol

Y/n's Pov

I still couldn't stop thinking about what you said earlier...

How you looked straight in my eyes and said its over..

I was shocke,d everything, was ok before.. We were laughing while teasing each other.

You were even holding my hand tightly while saying I'll never let you go.

So what happened? I need a valid reason..

What happened? Is it me? Am I not enough?

All those things that i wanted to ask you but I didn't have any courage to face you..

As morning came, I looked like a mess. I didn't had enough sleep thinking of it. I felt empty, I wanted to stay home so that I wouldn't see you. But don't want to dissapoint my parents so I went to school.

Everything was still the same in school but I still felt the feeling of change and emptiness, maybe because of the fact that you're not mine anymore.

I wanted to cry while thinking of what happened yesterday.

How you coldly said its over, while looking straighy in my eyes.. How could you be so cruel?

In the morning you told me that you love me and as the day passed you told me its over?? What the hell?

As I walked through the corridors I saw you.. At first I was partly happy but then I saw you with E/n (enemy's name), the happiness I felt was changed into anger and sadness.. Why her??

Why does it have to be the girl who would always play dirty tricks on me!? The girl who would embarrass me in front of everybody!? Why!!?

I couldn't take it anymore I walked up to you and said..

"Why?" I asked you while looking straight into your eyes.

"Why What?" You replied while grinning.

"Why did we broke up?" I said while holding back my tears.

"What do you think?" He said coldly.

This isn't you. This is not the Seungcheol I loved and dated. The you infront of me is like a stranger which i just knew. Did you change? Or is this the real you?

"Is that so?" I said with a dissapointed voice.

"Yes. I never loved you." You said coldly and started to walk away with her.

"Wait... Please.." I said. I wanted explainations.

"Hurry it up." You said while looking at your wristwatch.

"Was it all just a game? A joke?" I asked. Even if I'm scared of what you'll answer I still wanna know. I still wanna know clearly fron you even if I already know the answer.

"Yes."

Just with that.... I was expecting this but I didn't expect it to be this painfull

Just with that one word could end my life completely. Its hurts... It hurts pretty bad. I wanted to slap you, hurt you together with her. But i couldn't.

All I could is just laugh bitterly while tears streaming down my face and said

"I guess it really is over huh. Haha" I said. I didnt care if I looked like a mess. Nobody would care anyways.

"It is." You said shortly and then started to walk away again.

I didn't have the strength to walk to you again so I stood still trying to accept it all. But I just couldn't.

I walked and walked didn't know where my feets would take me. As long as I'm away from you I'll be fine.

I went back to my senses when I reached the rooftop. I went to the railings and looked around.

I saw all the places in our school where we used to hang out together, laugh and eat.

I looked at the garden where we would sat down and talk about what happened to us throughout the day.

How happy those memories was. How I cherished them. I wish we could still make more memories together. But i guess that wouldn't do anymore cause your no longer mine.

What happened to us before stays there. Now all I could do is forget and move on.

I just realized that this rooftop is quite relaxing. The fresh breeze of the air is hitting my face. Somehow i felt relaxed but it isnt enough it to make me change what I feel right now..

'How I wished all of this is just a dream'

That I'll wake up and see you next to me. That this is just a dream, a nightmare for me. A painful dream for me to just forget.

'I wish this is just a dream'

I thought while closing my eyes with tears still streaming down at my face.

I wiped them off and started to walk away.

Im forgetting everything and move on. Even if its hard I'll try. I'll try my best to forget you. Goodbye Seungcheol.

The end