Bottom of the Blue Ocean

The Undying Memory of You

Sup guys Srry I haven't updated in a while I'm... just not rlly sure how to continue this now. BUT I'm still gonna try so luv youuuu!

I touch my cheek the wetness rubbing across my jaw. The marks glow with a light similar to the stars in the night sky. Curse her. I sit up on my rickety bed and look around. Around me lay scattered clothes across the molding floor boards. The walls are lined with pictures of all of us together. We looked so happy.
My breath hitches as I find a picture of her, and then my eyes land on a different one. It's of him, actually smiling, in front of the fields. I tear my eyes from the picture and my vision blurs as new tears start to form. Why does everyone I love leave me? She died a noble woman and he... I remember it like the wound was still fresh.
It had been a year and three months since she died. I had decided it was finally time to try to get over her and ask him out. We met up at his old house... where it all really started. He looked at me with a slight twinkle in his eyes,
"What's all this about?" He chuckled. I felt my face heat up as my marks started glowing.
     "I-I've thought about it and... I love you." I looked into his eyes for his reaction. His eyes became glassy as he replied,
     "I love you and have since... a long time. I got so sad when you and her started going out, and I tried to hide it. I guess I did well didn't I?" I smile and step closer to him. He looks into my eyes as I do his, and we lean closer. Our lips touch for a second before leaving in a chaste kiss. I knew I could never regret this.
     The only thing I can see is the subtle glow beyond the barrier of water. I never did regret it. Not even now, as I sit on my own in the silence. I recall our last meeting with so much pain it's hard to think of it.
     He called me here, but he hasn't arrived yet. I'm nervous. He's been on edge and talking about leaving, but I don't want to. This is my home. This is where my family is. I wouldn't be able to stand being away from my family for so long again. A ship arrives in the distance and a member of the blade walks out. They come up to me then switch off their mask.
     He glances up at me. While I wait for him to talk, the wind picks up and spreads dust into the air. I hold my breath as he speaks up, still not looking at me,
     "I've decided to leave and travel across the galaxy to help people." Look at me. "You can't change my mind, but you can come with me to help." Look at me. "What's your decision?"
     I walk towards him and he finally looks up at me. The sun beats down on us as if this wasn't painful enough. I silently curse the universe for doing this to me. I stand in front of him with tear filled eyes that plead without a word.
     "Keith... you know I can't leave." I say in a hushed voice. "I know..." Is his reply. I hug him gently and lean against him.
     "Lance we both knew this would never work out the way we hoped it would." He says in a weak but firm voice. He pushes me away with one hand, but pulls me in for one last kiss. His lips are warm against mine for the moments that we share between them.
     He walks the great distance back to his ship, and looks back one last time. The ship disappears in an instant. Numbness consumes my entire being, before it all crumbles down at my feet along with my body. My being shakes as I pound on the cracked ground beneath me. I scream until my lungs burn like the scorching desert around me. My tears mix with my drool on the ground, and my world is left blank of emotions and color.
     I walk into the cabin and touch the walls. They seem so old I'm surprised they aren't dust yet. I search the house for anything worth taking. I don't have a clue wether he took his belongings from this place long ago, or wether he left his past behind. Finding nothing but cobwebs and decay I leave without a heart.
     When I had gotten back all that while ago, I had laid in bed until two days after. I decided to tend to the crops along with my broken heart. I continued with my life as I assume he did. He may not know it, but he was a thief. He stole my heart along with my very soul.

Soooooo... how was that? I feel like I've gotten better but idk cuz I rlly do not want to look at the cringe that was my old ones. Not even to fix them... *shudders*