Bottom of the Blue Ocean

Something I'm Not

Just thought of this because of a video that popped up in my head (btw didn't even relate to the animatic at all I just wanted a Lance rant srry)

     Voltron had saved a planet! Again. Keith was just glaring at some people he found suspicious while Hunk and Pidge were gushing over food and technology. While that happened, Shiro and Allura were off making peace treaties and alliances with the planets representatives. And of course Lance was somewhere flirting with the ladies of the planet.

     They loved him. Well, as much love as you can give a complete stranger. It was more of admiration and gratitude more than anything. But if Lance was getting attention, then by gods he was gonna take what he got. One alien girl screamed,

     "You're amazing!" While another squealed,

     "You're so kind and generous!" And yet there were more like,

     "I would give anything to be like you!" Or "How could you be so cool!" And Lance replied,

     "Ladies ladies calm down! There's enough of me to go around for all of you! Just wait you're turn." Yep, definitely a ladies man. But even as he said this, the words that filled his head emptied his stomach. But yet, he didn't know why at the time.

     Eventually, the time to go back to the castle came. Lance said good bye to his fan girls, Keith gave one last glance to the 'suspicious' people, Hunk and Pidge thanked the locals, and Shiro and Allura had already gone inside. Once they were finally inside, they all went to sit on the couch together after a hard days work.

     "I saw Lance getting a lot of action~" Pidge cooed. Lance had spit out whatever he was drinking at the time and replied,

     "What are you talking about? I'm always popular!"

     "Yeah right. You're lucky when an old woman pinches your cheeks." Keith said with a smirk.

     Lance just looked down in his cup. He stared at it for a minute before pouting and standing up to go into his room. Nobody really paid attention to it though, they were already distracted with new things.

     Just like that, a new 'day' arrived. Lance had woken up in a horrible mood, having to drag himself to breakfast. Of course, as always when he was depressed, he was the last one there. And they didn't let this one go.

     Shiro was quick to interrogate him,

     "What took you so long?" He sighed, adding, "Everyone was up late but you're always the last one." Shiro have him a disappointed look before sighing and focusing his attention on his breakfast.

     Lance looked around at everyone's faces and Shiro was right. Every single person had bags under their eyes and tired expressions plastered on their faces. Keith looked at Lance and growled. That's right. Growled,

     "I'm tired of Lance always being late and not getting in any trouble!" He complained. Shiro looked at him and sighed, "Let it be Keith." He replied.

     Keith growled at Shiro this time,

     "No! I'm sick and tired of this! Lance!" He yelled, eyes darting to Lance, "What is wrong with you?! Why can't you put in a little effort like everyone else on this ship?!" Lance took a step back at that.

     He couldn't stop the tears that started to flow. He couldn't think rationally either, so without thinking, he told him the whole truth,

     "You want to know why?!" He screamed in pain, "Because I can't stand lying to people and telling them that I'm strong or brave or kind! I'm fucking tired of being a replacement! I'm tired of being just the goofball!" Keith was taken aback. This didn't stop Lance, fueled by anger and sorrow,

     "I'm tired of being away from my family! I'm tired of trying to live up to everyone's expectations! I'm tired of trying to be you! The perfect pilot! Keith Kogane! Oh he dropped out? Just call the replacement! He's super bad at everything so just vent all your frustrations on him! He's too dense to feel hurt by it!" Everyone was staring at him with wide eyes by now, but the rant continued,

     "I can't stand when people tell me I'm brave or kind or anything like that! Because I'm not! I'm not the perfect paladin or perfect pilot! I'm sorry I just can't b-be some...something..... I'm n-n-not" He was bawling on the floor. His legs had given out when his body fell weak. Everyone had taken a moment to process what he had said, but nobody said anything.

     All they heard was a chair drop and suddenly Hunk was engulfing Lance in a giant bear hug. It didn't take long for Pidge to join, then Coran and Allura, then Shiro. Keith was just staring at the cuddle pile in embarrassment, not knowing what to do until Shiro brought out a hand to Keith.

     Keith slowly took his hand and was pulled into the hug, smiling with content. They would work this out. It would take a while, but they would.

Srry it was bad and practically nothing like the original but hey, I tried. I love to reply to comments so if ya feel like it, go ahead.