falling apart. | kylian mbappe

18.

1 year after

"America, I have a surprise for you!" My boyfriend Zion enters our house yelling scaring me the fuck out.

"Zion! I almost drop everything!" I complain and he laughs.

"Sorry baby! You know it wasn't my intention." He apologizes while kissing my cheek and helping me with dinner.

"It's fine." I smile at him. "What's your surprise tho?"

He chuckles. "It's a surprise duh!" He lays out and I sigh.

If you're wondering no, I wasn't pregnant by Kylian. No, I've never heard from him again. He never tried to contact me again, I didn't either. Maybe that last time was our goodbye. I've decided to mute his name on every social media and avoid gossip shows.

Things in Madrid didn't work out either, so I moved back to New York where I met Zion. I met him at the gym, we connected really fast because he loves the NBA too. Even though it hurts me, I had to move on from Kylian at some point. They say that if it's meant to be, it will be.

He is history now, he will always be a huge part of my life, but somehow we did not connect. Maybe I just couldn't cope with his lifestyle or he understands mine.

You're probably wondering about Thilo and the rest of the squad, to be honest, they were never friends just people I knew or that is what I thought.

Being back with my family in my country is actually nice, I needed to feel at home. Paris didn't treat me right.

"America, are you here?" Zion snaps his fingers in my face and snaps me back to reality.

"Yeah sorry!" I fake a smile.

"Baby the food is burning!" He yells.

I quickly turn off the oven. "I'm sorry," I say.

"Are you okay? Wanna talk about it?" He hugs me from behind, just like Kylian used to.

"Nah, I'm good I was just thinking that if I don't save money now to see the Golden State Warriors I might never see Klay, Durant, and Curry together again in my life!"

Zions erupts in laughter. "Well, you're kinda ruining my surprise." He says.

My eyes open wide. "Zion Olster what do you mean." I turn serious.

"Well, we might be going to Los Angeles next weekend to see the Warriors vs Lakers, but who knows it's a might." He shrugs.

I start screaming and jump on him, making him fall into the ground. "What the fuck I love you!" I keep screaming. I get up and run through the house. "Oh my God! Do you realize that I'm seeing the loves of my life altogether in one fucking game! What the heck Zion!"

"I think you meant I'm seeing some dudes with the love of my life." He replies and I laugh.

Kylian Mbappe

"When it's the game!?" Thilo asks me as soon as I enter the locker room.

Back in the off-season, I met the legendary Lebron James. Now that we have a few weeks off I got Thilo, Draxler, Neymar and I some courtside tickets just to see the legend itself play. Also, Neymar owns a house in Los Angeles so we can stay there.

"In two weeks, did you pack already?" I question him.

"Yes, of course, I need to get a jersey at the venue tho." He replies and I chuckle.

"Poser." Neymar jokes.

"Oh you better shut up, you stan two teams at the same time!" He fights back.

"Y'all are dumb as fuck lol, go Chicago Bulls!" Draxler pops out of nowhere.

"They suck now," I say.

"Boy you weren't even born when good basketball was played, thank you, next." Draxler leaves the room and we all laugh.

As I am putting everything inside my locker I noticed my hoodie, the one she wore the first time we met. I never showed it but I do miss her like hell. I hope she is doing well in Madrid, maybe she is already married and has kids. I've never heard from her again.

Since she left I couldn't find another girlfriend, just some flings when I feel lonely or frustrated. My friends have shown their worries about me but I always cut everyone off. I don't even wanna talk about it.

I'm 20 now, I'm grown. I wish I could tell her that, I wouldn't fail her again. She was my superhero, I lost her, I want her back, she did things to me that no one else could I miss that. But they say if you love her let her go, and they say if it's meant to be you'll know. She was one in a million, maybe the only girl that I will ever know who didn't want me because of my money, status or talent, and my dumb ass ruined everything every single time.

I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for what I've done and the beautiful person that I've lost but I can't change the past, just gotta learn from my mistakes and find her again.

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hello there! thank u for making it this far in my story, I think this might be the end of this book but since it that bitch of course there will be a part two.

this is the first book I've ever done so of course, its messy and i should edit it but for now, I'm more worried about writing the second part!

thank u for the support.
love y'all and wait for part two cause I've already written a few chapters!