falling apart. | kylian mbappe

11.

It has been a week since the last time I've spoken to Kylian, he hasn't even tried to call me up or text me. I'm not mad, I'm disappointed. 

I'm looking at the news right now, apparently, PSG didn't have a good game in the Champions  League. I see the highlights and I can notice Mbappe's annoyed and sad face. I try to ignore it and keep studying. I am, once again, sitting in the same small cafe I was when he picked me up after that unbelievable game with the whole Kimmich drama. I've come here often to study at night because I can't afford to pay electricity but no one knows about this.

I look at the screen again and Kylian is being interviewed. "You should forgive him." The boy who works here is now sitting in front of me.

"What?" I ask confused.

"I know who you are, I'm not dumb." I take a look around and the whole place is empty.

"What time is it?" I question him ignoring his last comment.

"10:30 pm." He simply says and I nod. "Girl, get your man." He insists.

"I'm sorry, I don't know what you are talking about." I lie to him.

''Look if I'm something besides a waitress is a really observant boy." He admits smiling.

"Ok fine yes we had a fight but he didn't even dare to call me!" I protest throwing my hands in the air and he chuckles.

"I knew it! I bet he is just dying to call you only that he has too much pride to do it or admit it, I mean he is a Sagittarius!" He comments.

"Ugh, he is so annoying. By the way, how do you know he is a Sagittarius?" I question him and he smiles again. "Oh, you probably just searched his birthday. What's your name tho?" I ask curiously to the ginger-haired boy in front of me.

"I am Victor." He extends his hand and I shake it. "Nice to finally talk to you America." 

"Oh, the pleasure is mine!" I express. "But I may have to leave so you can close the place," I suggest.

"It's fine, you can stay. I can see that you're charging your phone." He says pointing to the blue cable holding my phone and I nod. "Anyways, you should go to his house." He returns to the old subject.

"And do what?" I asked rolling my eyes.

"Hype him up." He simply says.

"I'm not willing to lose my pride," I reply annoyed. "He is an asshole!" I add.

"But you love him and he loves you." He states.

"He doesn't love me back, he doesn't even want to introduce me to his friends!"

"What is he going to tell his friends? 'Oh hey, this is a girl I make out with occasionally but we're not dating." He mimics Kylian and I chuckle.

"Okay, true." I give in. "I just can't stop doing everything for him, I can't put my life aside for him." I finish.

"I get you but, do you love what you do? Like what you're studying and working." He questions and I stay in silence, do I? 

I lay back and he smiles at me. "I don't." I finally admit to him.

"Then what is stopping you from being with him? You can find something you like and do it while you support your boyfriend!" He proposes smiling but I stay in silence.

"My mum didn't work. My dad was the only one working at home. Every time they argue he'd always recriminate to her that it's his money, that he is the one working and depending on him. I don't want to repeat the story with Kylian." I inform and he nods.

"Kylian is not your father."

"I know but." I sigh. "Ugh."

"You're not losing anything by trying it. I'm telling you, drop by his house now and let the things flow, stop overthinking and risk it all."

I look at the screen again and see the news about how bad the game was. Kylian's frustrated face make me surrender. I tried to tie my heart down, board up all the windows but it's too late now I let him get too close. I get up from my seat and grab all my belongings. 

"I'm going," I admit and he claps excited.

"Let me call you a cab!" He grabs his phone and starts calling one.

Here I am, taking advice from a stranger I met at a cafe, maybe this is what destiny has for me. 

"Thank you for everything, I mean it! How much is this?" I point to the table with all the leftovers from coffee and food.

"It's on me gorgeous!" He yells careless, he looks more excited than me.

"No, please let me pay you." I insist and he keeps denying with his head.

"I said no, now the cab is outside. Go for it!" He pushes me off the place and closes the door behind me.

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I get inside the vehicle and tell the driver the location, thank God I'm good remembering places. Once we stop I pay the old man and look at the huge gates. Okay, I walk towards the ring and I press it. No one answers. I repeat my actions but like before I get no reply. I sigh frustrated. I decide to do it one last time and Kylian's deep throaty voice scares me.

"Ne pas déranger (do not bother.)"

"Kylian?" I ask bitting my lip.

"America?" He asks confused.

"Mmh." I murmur and the gate opens. I quickly run inside, I walk through the big garden and I see the dim light illuminating the french's boy half-naked body. He moves to a side to let me get in the house. 

"What are you doing here?" He questions me.

"I wanted to check up on you," I admit. "Do you want to talk about it?" I ask referring to the game and he denies with his head. "Do you need a hug?" He nods and embraces my small body with his arms.

"I missed you." He mumbles on my ear and I hug him tightly.

"I did too," I confess. I know I should take cover, hide inside my four walls but for Kylian I surrender, it all.

"Move in with me." He pleads and I open wide my eyes.

"Are you drunk?" I ask him pulling off from his arms.

"I feel really lonely here, it's a big house for just a teenager." He lays out.

"I don't know what to say." 

"Just do it, please. You make me happy, plus you can't afford your bills." He explains and I smile.

"Do you think I would be living here without paying for anything?" I ask incredulous and he nods. "Donatello I'd never do that! If I move here I pay for half of everything!" I yell and he chuckles.

"This is why I love you." He declares and I look at him in shock, did he just? He realizes his words and gets shocked too. "I"

"Do you mean it?" I question him and he looks away. 

"Would this change my proposal?" He asks still not facing me.

"Just answer the question," I order.

"I just feel empty without you. I like the sound of your voice and adore the sound of your laugh, I love how you speak my language. Your face lights my day, when I'm with you it's magic." He confesses facing the ground.

I lift his chin with my finger and make him look at me. "I love you too." I smash our lips together. He was clearly not expecting me to. Our lips just feel right together. We are getting lost in it, his hands are in my hair and mines on his body. When I run out of breath I pull away and rest my forehead against his, our breaths are combined. "I'm a caution taker but baby you're a force of nature," I admit and smash our lips together again, but this time it is filled with more lust. He lifts me up. I place my legs around his tone body and he starts to make his way towards his bedroom.