Camila POV
"When will you be ready?" Lauren ask. I roll my eyes, this is the millionth time she's ask me.
"Lauren they're many ways I can answer that but I'll stick with my original answer. We can't have kids." I sigh. I know that she really wants this but there is no way we can have children.
"We can." Lauren says.
"So you would be okay with me having sex with Zayn?" I question. Her eyes widen. "That's what I thought."
"You don't have to have sex." Lauren says again.
"Lauren I don't want to have children." I say a lot harsher than I intended. I see her face go from relaxed to angry.
Lauren stands up and leaves the room. I throw my head back on the pillow and silently scold myself. I know she wants me to have our children but we've only been together for a little over two years. Growing up I never wanted children, it wasn't something I dreamed of.
"Mila what happened?" Madison ask while walking over to the bed.
"I kinda snapped on Lauren. It was a accident she just kept asking about children." I try to explain. "God I feel so sorry."
"Have you told her why?" Madison ask. I shake my head.
"I don't want to upset her." I whisper. Madison places her hand on my knee.
"She will understand. The girl is crazy about you." Madison smiles.
"Thanks Maddie." I give her a hug.
"Now come on we're going for a walk with the kids." Madison informs me.
I smile. This is something we try to do at least once a week. The kids need to be free and able to see what was left of the world. Ryan enjoyed the outdoors, he would always find a way to climb a tree or dig a hole. Zariah on the other hand was the complete opposite. She enjoyed staying inside, she was calm. She never wanted to get dirty.
"Mila get your ass down here." Dinah yells. I head I loud slap and Mani's voice.
"Dinah there are children down here." Mani scolds the girl.
I make my way down the stairs to see everyone ready to go. I see Lauren leaning against the door and I smile, she gives me a small smile.
"Ready." I say.
"Mila carry me." Ryan says. I smile at the little boy and pick him up.
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20 minutes into our walk and Ryan is sleeping in a little wagon we found. Zariah is skipping along side Madison.
"Okay Little one sing with me." Madison says. Zariah smiles.
When your legs don't work like they use to before
Madison looks down at Zariah and nods her head. "Come on sing, I know you know the lyrics."
And I can't sweep you off of your feet, will your mouth still remember the taste my love?
Madison sings a little louder.
Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?
Madison gestures to one of us to sing along.
And darling I will be loving you till we're seventy
I sing. Madison smiles.
And baby my heart could still fall as hard at twenty three
Normani starts to sing while looking at Dinah. I see I blush creep onto Dinah's face.
I'm thinking bout, how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Dinah now comes in and sings to Normani.
Maybe just the touch of the hand, oh me I fall in love with you every single day and I just wanna tell you I...
Harry sings while taking ahold of Zendaya's hand.
So honey now... take me into your loving arms! Kiss me under the lights of a thousand stars. Place your hand on my beating heart.
Zendaya sings. When she she finishes I see Zariah clapping and smiling harder than ever.
I'm thinking out loud. Maybe we found love right where we are
Ally sings. I smile brightly to her.
When my hairs overgone and my memory fades. And the crowds don't remember my name. When my hands don't play the strings the same way, I know you will still love me the same
Zayn's voice come in. We all look at him in shock. He has never been keen on singing in front of us. The only person left to sing was Lauren and she didn't look like she was going to. Zariah seem to notice cause she walked over to Lauren and tugged in her pants. She points to her mouth and Lauren shakes her head. Zariah pouts.
"Pl- please.." Zariah chocks out. Everyone stopped walking in shock.
"Holy shit." Madison whispers.
"Si- sing f-for me." Zariah says. My eyes start to water. Lauren looks like she is in shock. Her mouth is parted open.
Cause honey your soul can never grow old it's evergreen
Lauren chocks out, I can tell she was struggling to hold back her tears.
Baby your smile forever in my mind and memory!
Lauren finishes. Zariah smiles and claps excitedly.
Fa-fall in lo-love in- in-
Zariah tried to sing a part of the song but struggled. Lauren picks her up and spin her around.
"It's a okay, I'm proud of you." Lauren says. Zariah claps again.
"Holy shit." Madison says again. "Little one talked."
Everyone laughs and claps. Zariah seemed to love the attention cause she tried to talk again before Lauren stopped her.
"Hey let's not, you're still learning." Zariah nods her head and points to Ryan.
"You wanna lay down too?" I ask. She nods her head again.
"Guess that's our cue to go home." Ally says.
"Holy shit." Madison says again. I roll my eyes at the girl.
"Madison we get it she talked." Harry says.
"Not fair little one, I asked you to talk." Madison fake pouts.
"Let's be happy that she's finally talking." Dinah says.
"She's going to be terrible now." Normani jokes.
We walk back to the house and lay both of the kids in their beds. Once we make sure they're good we make our way downstairs.
"Lauren can we talk?" I ask Lauren quietly. She nods her head. We walk out the back door and sit in the little chairs.
"I wanted to apologize for what I said." I start. Lauren looks at me and shakes her head.
"You don't have to do that. I thought about it and I'm okay with not having kids." Lauren says. I frown.
"No, you can't just agree because you don't want to upset me." I say.
"Camz I don't want to fight." Lauren says tiredly.
"I not trying to fight." I retort. "I'm just... look Lauren if you wanna have kids then okay, I'm just not ready right now."
"Okay I understand." Lauren smiles and stands up.
"I love you, you know that right?" I ask her. She leans towards me.
"I love you more." Lauren kisses the top of my head.
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