I Wish I Was A Poem (prose&poems)

When you looked around me
with your eyes so dull
and empty—
you tried denying the pain
as if I mistook those
tears for joy
I felt your heart
that has been wanting to stop its
beating,

that time I knew what you've been hiding,
I knew..

you wish to be a poem too.

My love and admire for poets and poetry started a long time ago, I can't exactly remember how and when  it all began. I was inlove, mesmerized  on how much poetry changes me. I can't actually find the right word to describe it but one thing I knew to make it more easy is that;

I'm inlove. Inlove with words, syllables, rhymes, and art. For me, poetry is an art. Not everyone will understand the meaning behind those stanzas, but I sure will. But sharing my own thoughts wasn't easy. I had a hard time sharing it to someone.  Poetry is an escape, my home. 

I always wanted to share my works with others. But, I am afraid of criticsm and rejection. Knowing that there's a lot of poet out there who write poems better than me. And then I realize, we have our own way of writing and this is how I write. No need of doubting myself, comparing myself with any other poets, I'm a writer in my own way. I published this book here on Wattpad simply because I thought; maybe I should start thriving and to kick my anxiety out of my soul.  Publishing it wasn't easy-- It was like showing my skin to strangers. Showing my deepest secrets to everyone; I was afraid.

I Wish I Was A Poem is a compilation of my own poems that I made when I isolated myself with the real world. When I had a battle with myself and the world. When I've got nothing but my shadows, thoughts, pen and papers.

I wonder what being a poem feels like.
I wonder how does it feels like to be loved by a poet.

To be kept as a treasure,
to see as a form of art.
So beautiful
And almost perfect.

I wish I was a poem.