Said I love you but I lied

Chapter 5

Kissy's POV

I woke up early the next day to go to office after having breakfast with my family. We discussed the proposal I am preparing and they seem pleased with how it is progressing, they only requested that I do not push myself too hard and to remember to eat on time and healthily.

My parents have never been overprotective but because of all that we've been through when I was unwell, I try my best to understand why they feel the need to constantly check up on me and worry about me. I guess parents will always be parents even when we grow older.

The truth is that my family left ten years ago when the doctors found that I have a rare form of cancer, which can only be treated by experimental treatments that are only available abroad. The whole family was devastated. It took 5 years for me to survive cancer and even until now, I still see specialists every year for a full check.

It was my decision to not tell everyone, apart form the family, because I felt that this was the best option for me. We did not know if I was going to survive and if I wasn't, I did not want people's last memory of me to be the sick girl who was taken too young.

Before cancer, I was a good student with a lot of friends. I was the class president and although I do not play sports, I was a member of different clubs in school. I was active and happy. That is me. I did not want cancer to define my whole life. So, we decided to make it seem like we just had to move abroad.

I was 15 then and Marky was 18, we already said we loved each other the year before but because I was only 15, we decided to wait until I was 18 to actually tell our parents and be in a formal relationship. Unfortunately, when I was 18, I was fighting for my life.

We were young but I knew how much he loved me. I knew that if he knew I was unwell, he would never have let me go. He would have visited me and fought for me but I didn't want that. I love him and wanted him to live a life, even if it isn't with me.

I could not settle the whole night wondering if I should tell Marky what really happened or to just leave it be. I decided that I want Marky and I to be friends again. I hoped he still loves me as I love him but the way he looks at me and treats me, it seems impossible to hope for that. So I decided I will settle for friendship. I can settle for that. I can love him and hopefully in time, we can at least be friends again.

I got to the office at 8am with coffee for Marky and I. I don't really know what kind of coffee he likes so I got him the same as mine – a cappuccino. When I got there, Olivia informed me to wait as he is already in a meeting and does not want to be disturbed.

"Call Ms Hart and find out why she's not here yet!" I heard Marky shout while coming out from his office.

Both Olivia and I were startled as he was looking for me whilst I have been here for half an hour waiting for him to finish his meeting.

Olivia tried to reply but upon seeing me there, Marky looked at her sharply. "Why was I not informed that Ms Hart was already here? Next time, let her in immediately."

Olivia looked confused as she told me earlier that Marky once got very angry with her when she called while he was in a meeting. She did not say anything though and just mumbled a quiet 'yes sir'.

I proceeded to follow Marky in his office and offered him the coffee to hopefully calm him down. I have never seen him angry before and I must admit, there is something terrifying and absolutely sexy about the way he looks.

Marky gave me that look I can't define again and looked at the coffee I was offering. He said thanks and took the coffee from me. One side of his mouth twitched and it looked like he was smiling but I can't really say. Maybe he was still angry? I was so distracted and not realized that it must already be cold.

"Sorry, I think the coffee is already cold." I apologized.

"It's okay. I like cold coffee" He said and took a large gulp.

We sat down to discuss my proposal and agreed to change a few things before I put the proposal through. We agreed on the theme of the travel packages and he asked me to design a sample package for a trip to one country to start with. We plan to launch it and see how the market reacts before packages for other countries are put through.

Once we've finished, I was about to leave when Marky told me that he has prepared an office for me so I can work in the company if I wish to. We walked outside of his office and to my surprise, he opened the office adjacent to his and showed me in.

He said it was where Jake's office was supposed to be when he decided to join the company but as he is still preoccupied with his own business, I can use his office for the mean time.

"It's ready for you when you need it. We can hire a secretary for you if you like but since it will only be temporary, you can ask Olivia for anything." He said.

"This is really nice of you. Thanks Marky, I mean Xander" I replied.

"You really find Xander difficult, don't you?" He sked with a smirk. 

I think he is finally warming up to me.

I couldn't answer and just smiled.

"Well, if it really is too difficult, you can call me Marky." He relented.

"Yay!" I fist pumped and was going to hug him when realized what I was doing. I put my arms down and went very red with embarrassment.

Marky only laughed and turned to leave my office.