Summer Love

Chapter 6

Saturdays have turned into strange, but happy days.

Last Saturday I got to know Jordy a bit more. This Saturday was also about getting to know someone more. I was sitting in the front garden as almost every day, talking to my mom and having a cup of tea in the afternoon as we enjoyed the beautiful May weather. Dave walked through his hallway and saw us. He walked through the hallway a couple more times until he decided to open the door and have a little chat with us. This is the first actual chat we had since he introduced himself to us. He just stood there as my mom invited him to take a seat. He took the seat across me. He is nice. Turned out he's a security guard. He has been a security guard at some of the clubs I used to go to with Lindsey. I've never seen him there, but it's still a funny coincidence. He's also been a security guard at my ex his favourite football club, which is also still my favourite. It's cool.

You know what? It's like when we saw each other for the first time, something happened. We both felt something, like a spark. I feel like this man had come into my life for a certain reason. He's 7 years older, but that also means he's more serious, more mature. He wouldn't play games with me..

I thought he was really attractive. I mean I never see Owen anymore, except for when he walks by but we don't talk anymore. We don't even say hi to each other anymore. Maybe I am forgetting about him after all. Everything was stupid after all if I think about it. I still hope something will happen between us, but I'm not expecting anything anymore. A real man will do something to get you, wouldn't he?

I'm fucking done with school. I'm having my summer break in 1 month and a half. I can't wait, I'm counting the days haha. I am starting to think more positive about things. I'm gonna do a lot of fun things in the coming months. Lindsey is coming over on Friday night. That's probably gonna be the day she will see Owen and Dave for the first time. Do I trust her? No. But I still want to involve her. She is still my best friend.

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The Friday night.

Lindsey and I went for a long walk first, so we had time to talk in private. We went to get some alcohol on the way back. When we came back to my house everyone was at Celine's. Lindsey and I decided to join everyone, after we got some glasses and coke to mix our alcohol with. After talking for a bit, Owen and Francis came home. He was looking at me, desperately. Like he wanted to stay but he couldn't. His mom was really angry at him, she was almost screaming at him. He didn't say a word, until he got a phone call. He quickly answered as he took a seat in his own front yard, next to Celine's. He got really angry on the phone and left again as he ended the call.

  I wanted to cry. I must've looked like a fool to Lindsey. He didn't even say hi. She did say that he was looking at me constantly. But I wouldn't see that, because I'm too focused on him.

The drinks were flowing, as usual. I switched to a certain liquor, which I actually can't handle. Whenever I drink it I get really tipsy. So guess what I did..

I was talking super loud about how done I was with Owen. About what he says, and does afterwards, because his words don't match his actions. After complaining about that I talked really loud about how much I still like him and that I can't let go of him. Celine heard everything, but at that certain moment I couldn't care less. A bit later I started talking to Sidney, about Dave.. But Lindsey really thought it was a good idea to say how she likes Owen better, becasuse he's more my age. Sigh...

I swear to god. The day after I was so embarrassed. I really don't wanna show my face ever again. Why am I like that when I get drunk? I even dreamed about Dave, about how he had his own fitness hall and how we ended up making out. Also embarrassing. I really hope no one is gonna talk to Dave about what I said last night. That would be the worst thing to ever happen. Everything with Owen is already fucked up, I don't wanna fuck things with Dave up too.