***DISCONTINUED*** Savior [Colby Brock]

12 - Good times

I wake up the next morning, but Colby is not in bed with me anymore. I can't lie, I'm a little disappointed. I know that we're still not a thing, and probably never will be... But still. It hurts. I sit up and try to push away the negativity, but I can't really succeed. I grab my phone to check up on social media, when I notice two new messages, from Brennen and Dylan. Of course.

Brennen, 8am:
Looking forward to seeing you again soon babygirl <3

Dylan, 3am:
I'm going to be there soon. You can't ignore me forever!!!

I hate this. HATE IT! I throw away my phone. I don't want to see it anymore. Non of this. I lay back down and hide myself under the blankets, trying not to cry. It just lay down like this for a good amount of time. I don't want to face the world ever again. I'm about to break and give into the negativity, when I hear the doors creaking and someone walking in. "Hey, are you up?" I hear Colby's soft voice say. I mumble a low "no" and turn to face the wall under the blanket.

"What's wrong" Colby says, as he sits down besides me, caressing me through the blanket. "Nothing" I mumble and remeber my phone being somewhere with the message still on screen. I try to find my phone as I wiggle out of his grip. But he notices it and grabs it before I'm able to reach it. He unlocks the screen, since I don't have any code on it, and sees the message from Dylan. Being this idiot I am, I didn't close it down.
Colby is silent for a minute reading the text. Eventually he says "He's never going to hurt you Y/N" . He takes a deep, controlled breath, "me and the rest brought you here for a reason - to keep you safe" he takes another short break, "from any kind of harm" he then says.

I pull down the blanket and look at him. He smiles at me, as he sees my messy hair and tired looking face. "What?" I says a little offended, even though I'm not. I frown a little and he just stares and me and suddenly starts smiling a way to big smile.

"You should smile" he says and smiles a bit more, "if you don't do it on you're own then I'm making you".
"well, try me!" I just say and regret it instantly. He throws himself at me, tickling me and making me laugh like an idiot. I try to push him off, then to tickle him back and then to push him off again. But nothing works. Eventually he stops before I'm about to die. "Now, don't lose that smile, I'm not afraid to do it again" he says as he pulls away a little, giving me a chance to breathe. I sit up and calm down a little. "You wouldn't dare" I say, teasing him a little. "I would, and there are other ways I could make you smile to" he says, teasing me back. "I don't think that there are any other ways" I say and put on a fake frown.

His smile grows a little and before I can do anything, he leans in to kiss me. And everything about it is perfect. It feels like it lasts minutes, but I know that it only takes a few seconds before he pulls away. I smile a big smile that I can't hide, even though I try to. "Told you, I could make you smile in a lot of different ways" he says, smiling back at me, "and I have to say" he pauses, "this must be my favorite way". My smile grows from hearing these words. Colby Brock enjoys kissing me! I could scream right now!

We just sit and look at each other for a few seconds, both smiling over what just happened. "Well" he eventually says, "get up, put on some clothes and come downstairs" he continues and stands up, "the girls are making breakfast" he adds and walks out the door.

I throw myself back into bed. I feel like a 12 year old girl, whose crush just talked to her for the first time. I squeal a little by thinking of the kiss. Thinking of him. I can't believe he actually did that! But will it happen again? Or did he really just do it in order to make me smile?

My happiness vanishes a little by the thought, so I rise up and grab some fresh clothes and go to the bathroom where I wash my face and brush my hair. Then I put on the clothes. I put on some black, ripped shorts first and pull one of Colby's hoodies over my head. It's a yellow one, with a koala on the front and "Brock" on the back, which is really cute. And it's sooooo comfy!!!

I walk downstairs, where most of them are gathered in the kitchen. "It's about time young lady! we are starving" Sheila says and starts laughing. I smile and shake my head at her, "sorry mum" I say and laugh too, as I walk closer to look at the food.

"Hey, isn't that your hoodie" Jake says to Colby and chuckles a little. Colby look up at me with a big smile. Before he could say anything I say "Not anymore", smile in triumph and walk over to the living room.

We all sit down in the living room and talk and eat for a good amount of time. We are having so much fun, I almost forget the trouble I have in my life. But as we sit in silence for a few moments, I notice that I'm starting to drift away from reality. My arm hurts and the thoughts are taking over my body. I just didn't notice because I was caught up in the situation. Without saying anything I stand up and leave the living room. I have to find the pills. I hear footsteps behind me, and then a hand grabbing my arm. "Are you okay?" Colby says as he looks me in the eyes. ""Yeah, I just need my pills" I say and try to walk away but he holds on to me.

"Y/N you're not supposed to take them until tonight. The doctors were pretty clear about that" he says with a concerned look on his face. "I can't stand these thoughts Colby" I say and feel myself tearing up. He pulls me into a hug and we just stand there like that for while. Then I pull away, remembering something else.

"Well, if you don't give me the pills, then at least give me the bandages so I can change them" I say, and look at him. "You're not doing that alone and you know that" he says and looks at me for a moment. "I said I would do it for you and I am going to keep that promise" he then says. I nod. A part of me hates that he wants or has to do this, while the other part is happy about it. I don't want him to see, but on the other side he already has. Oh my god, I hate feeling like this.

We upstairs and into the bathroom he shares with Sam. He makes me sit down on the edge of the bathtub and then he grabs the bandages from a drawer under the sink. I pull up the sleeve of the hoodie, but it can't go all the way to expose my whole underarm. I look at him, I don't want to do this, but I guess I have to. "Don't worry, I'm not like that" Colby says with a smile as I pull of the hoodie. But he does look, and his smile does grow bigger. I blush and cover my body with the hoodie.

Colby looks me deep into the eyes as I cover myself up, then he says: "You know that you look amazing, right?", and smiles an even bigger smile. I blush even more, not knowing what to answer. I look down and try to escape this situation. Don't ask me how, I just to try something.

He crabs my chin gently with his hand and lifts my head, looking me into the eyes before kissing me again. This time a little longer. A little more passionately. And so gentle. "And you're cute when you blush" he says as he pulls away.

We don't say anything more after that. I just don't know how to react. He changes the bandages as I look away, still not ready to look at what I did to myself. When his done he places a gentle kiss on my arm. "It's looking good, and one day you won't hate yourself anymore" he pauses for a short while looking at me, "I'm gonna make you love yourself". I reply with a soft smile, then we go back down.

The rest of the day goes of a bit slow. The guys film some videos and the girls head out, but I stay behind. I still don't feel that well and I can't take the pills until it's later, so the thoughts could take over any moment. I just don't want to put myself at risk out there. So I stay behind, doing absolutely nothing all day. Which is nice too. I just chill in Colby's room all day and watch movies and catch up on some series.

As they all get home, one after one, we order food and watch a movie together. This time something funny. We all head to bed early. Sheila sleeps with me this time, and Colby with Jake. I must say that I am a little sad. But at the same I know that this is the right thing to do. Not rushing things.

Sheila and I fall asleep in no time. She, because she's exhausted after the long day out, and me because of my pills. And the 2 sleeping pills I took since I didn't feel tired at all.

In the middle of the night I wake up to my phone ringing.

A/N:
Soooo, Colby kissed you! twice! And called you both beautiful and cute!!

But who is calling you? And what about the texts from Brennen and Dylan?

Read on and find out

- Anni, xoxo