Anticipation

Lets get wasted

"So you going to the valentine's day party next weekend ?"Rocky asked smoking on a rello he had rolled prior to coming to chill with me .

We were sitting on the edge of the concrete statue in this park down the street from my house that I didn't even know existed . The view of the moon was beautiful and chilling with Rocky was pretty cool . Not only was he gorgeous and chocolate, his personality matched .

"I hate valentine's day " , I whined " it's like why show somebody that you love them one day out of the year . You're supposed to show that all the time"

"You got somebody you love?" , He asked looking at me then back at the smoking tobacco and marijuana . "Nah , I don't even know if love is real . ", I shrugged shaking my head .

"What you mean " , He asked his face displaying confusion " Love is real . It's all around us . "

"Okay, so maybe love is real . I know that from the love I have for my family and friends but Im talking about romance love . I don't think it's real . I think it's just a concept people made up in their minds when they married people off for money and shit ."

He smacked his lips in disagreement "You have to find the right person. "

"You found the right person ?" , I asked holding my hand out for the rello . He hesitated before handing it to me " don't hurt yourself. That's a pack . " , he warned . " I got this , so answer the question " , I inhaled the smoke and choked a little but still held it together .

"Nah , I want to . I want to so bad " , he stared off " I've never had a girlfriend or nothing like that . To tell you the god honest truth . Im still virgin "

With that all the good smoke in my lungs came tumbling out of my mouth before I got a good inhale . There was no way in hell he was trying to sell me that .

"Im serious . " , He shrugged "I've never understood fucking somebody you don't love or have strong feelings for "

"Me neither but apparently it feels so good you don't care " , I laughed now feeling the weed taking effect . " I mean it has to feel good right ? All these babies and stds running around . It must. "

"Definitely must."

It got silent for a bit as we passed the blunt back and forth between each other .

"I knew I liked you . " , he broke the silence " I just had to see how we vibed by ourselves and not at school . I've been trying to ask since I met you but . . . I ain't going to lie you make me stupid fucking nervous . "

"I don't understand why . Im regular and as laid back as far as these other girls come . "

"Because I like you " , He bobbed his head with a chuckle " You make me nervous. . . because I like you ."

"All Im trying to say is if there is a chance . I want to take it , so if you are planning on going to the dance . Don't forget about me "

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After chilling with Trey and Rocky that Friday , My mind was on everything but school and all the other shit that was supposed to be on my mine. I thought it would be awkward at school with Rocky after him finally admitting to having a crush on me , but we jumped back into our own mode .

He hadn't even asked about the party again and I knew he wanted to seeing as though it was tonight .

 I had planned on going 

. Kiyanna and me had gathered our outfits together at my house the previous night and she'd braided my hair into 10 long straight backs that flowed down my back .