Dear diary,
Raymond apoligized for hurting me. Then he kissed me and when he kissed me I fell for him again I wanted to throw him off me but I couldn't. I feel like i'm such a messed up person I cheated on Raymond, i'm throwing away my values,and I let Raymond kiss me knowing I want to be with Marcus or do I?I don't know what I want i'm so confused I think I need to let go of Raymond and start something fresh with Marcus. I had sex with Marcus again but I don't think of it as having sex I feel we had sex the first time and made love the second we have a strong attachment. I'm going to call him now. until next time diary
