Dear diary, 8-24-09
As i sit here thinking i don't feel how i used to for Raymond when we kiss it's not the passion i once remember. I always think about Marcus i wonder if he knows I like him because i can't keep holding it inside. If Raymond knew he'd be heart broken we've been together for 11 1/12 months to tell him there's someone else would devastate him. I haven't told nobody about my feelings for Marcus. If this Diary gets out all hell could break loose. Shaniya + Marcus or Shaniya + Raymond. I don't wanna seem like a hoe for liking two guys :(. Could this year be the year my dreams come true. These years being the best years of my life? Could i be in love with Marcus? Should I let my emotions run wild or control them and stick with the Raymond? Man this is gonna be a hard decision.
