When a Man Hater Meets Her Fiancé

✔ Chapter 5

◇Feelings◇

Keira's POV

Geez. That bastard, I hate him!

He left me dumbfounded and clueless at the same time after niyang gumawa ng scene kanina with me, in public! Gah. He's unpredictable! And it's really pissing me. Crap.

"Ang landi, oh! May man hater pang chuchu effect tapos, ay! Taray! Ngayon ay may lovelife! And, hm. Takey notey, with Neo Kryzyl Park the new hottie ng University." she exclaimed excitedly while clapping her hands.

"Eh kung sinasaksak ko kaya sa 'yo yung takong ng sapatos ko? Right here, right at this moment." I warned while giving her a deadly glare.

"Grabe ka naman, siszy. You know naman na I'm just joking, eh. Hindi na nasanay, oh." she pouted her lips. "Syempre bestfriend mo 'ko kaya alam ko na may reason naman behind that kissing scene with the new hottie of our Uni---aray!" reklamo niya pagkatapos kong ipukpok sa ulo nya yung librong nakapatong sa table. Ang gaga, hinihimas yung parte ng ulo niya na hinampas ko. As if lang na masakit talaga yun. Tch. Ang arte.

"You're  a sadista talaga. Aren't you naaawa ba?" she tried to make me feel bad about what I did to her.

"Itikom mo 'yang bibig mo kung ayaw mong ma-stapler ko na 'yan ng tuluyan. Nag-uumpisa ka na naman sa sinasabi mo kanina, ah." inis kong nasabi. Nag peace sign lang siya habang ngiting-ngiti.

Feeling niya naman cute siya pag ginagawa niya yun.

I rolled my eyes. I still have to find that jerk. How dare he do that to me. He must pay me an explanation. Grr.

I stood up and left Ysabella to take a walk. In that way, hindi mahahalata na hinahanap ko siya. What pisses me even more is everyone's giving me a judging look.

Akala mo naman alam na nila ang buong storya. Tch.

Looks like faith is in my favor. I saw him walking alone. Oh, how was that? He's all alone.

Hinawakan ko siya sa balikat at biglaang hinila pa-harap sa 'kin. It's obvious that he got puzzled at first.

"What?" he asked boastfully.

"Why did you kissed me?" I asked in disbelief. "Are you using me again? Is this the revenge that you want?"

Sasagot pa lang sana si Neo ng may biglang epal na nag-slow clap.

"You two are making an entertaining show." he said grinning. "Parang nanonood lang ako ng pelikula." he added.

Fame whore ka talaga, Matt.

"Are you a trying hard intruder? Or just an asshole who does want to catch some attention?" I asked in a sarcastic way as I am raising an eyebrow. "Wag kang epal, Matt. Bago ko pa maisipang alisin ang existence mo sa mundong 'to." I continued.
Si Neo naman, mukhang nakikinig lang.

Try niya kaya akong tulungan, di ba?

Hindi na nga pala dapat hanapan, war kami eh. We're not even friends. What am I thinking?

"Kung makapagsalita ka parang hindi ka halos mabaliw sa pagka-inlove sa 'kin, ha? And as far as I remember, para kang bata kung ngumawa nung iniwan kitang mag-isa." pagmamayabang ni Matt.

At talagang proud ka pa.

'Yan ang gusto kong sabihin sa kanya. Pero di ko magawa. Hindi ko masabi.
Tama naman kasi. Totoo yung sinabi niya. And that's bullshit. That's my fucking problem. I'm weak whenever I need not to.

I thought that I am okay now. Looks like, that's just what I thought. I feel so weak. I feel so useless again. That's what he made me feel after he left me.

I tried my best to forget. I tried not to be affected when this time comes. Pero ano? Walang kwenta lahat ng preparations at mind set ko na 'yon. Stupid.

Can't I just live my life like normal people do? Until when will I live in my past? Can't somebody tell me, please?

Neo's POV

What the fuck. Is she really crying?

"Let's go." I said and grabbed her hand.

Wala na 'kong pakielam kung magmukhang tanga yung kausap niya kanina na hindi ko din alam kung saang lupalop nanggaling at ganun-ganun na lang kabilis napaiyak ang mataray na babaeng 'to.

Kung may issue silang dalawa, pwede naman nila akong hindi idamay, di ba? Nananahimik ako tapos nasasama ako sa mala-pelikulang eksena. Kung insensitive lang ako, hinayaan ko na lang ngumawa doon yung babaeng 'to at api-apihin nung abnormal na lalaking 'yon. Pag-untugin ko pa sila ng aso ko eh.

On the other side, wala naman nga pala akong aso.

Anak ng. Kailan pa ko naging korni?

What's her name again? I mean yung malditang babae na 'to. Tsk.

Hila-hila ko lang siya habang tahimik kaming naglalakad. Hindi ko naman siya makuhang lingunin, baka nag-eemote pa eh. Maka-istorbo pa 'ko.

Nung nakarating kami sa open field, binitawan ko na siya and I faced her.

"Now, sit." I commanded.

Halos makarinig ako ng kuliglig dahil sa sobrang tahimik. Nakatayo lang siya dun at nakatanaw sa kawalan habang may tumutulong luha sa mga mata nya. Aish. She looks stupid, really.

"Can you please stop crying?!" I yelled.

Tsk. I hate seeing someone crying. Especially in front of me. And on my situation, lalo nang nakakainis dahil babae pa naman siya.
Nakaka-guilty, ah. Parang ako pa ang nagpaiyak sa kanya na hanggang ako na lang ang kasama niya ay umiiyak pa rin sya.

Mukhang natauhan naman siya at napatingin sa 'kin sabay pinunasan yung pisngi niya.

Seeing her reaction, it's obvious that even she doesn't know that she is crying.

Kinokonsensya nya ba ko o ano?

Iniwas niya lang kasi ang mukha niya para hindi ko makita na tumutulo pa rin yung luha niya kahit na pinunasan na niya ang mga pisngi niya.

What do I have to do?

I went near her, hold her chin and made her face me. Our gaze met. I gave her a disapproving look.

"Stop crying. Speak," I used my thumb to wipe her tears.

"Fuck that Matt. Curse him. W-Why does he need to remind me of what happened about the past? What does he want? I-I can't fucking u-understand. His intention was to hurt me." she said between her sobs. "This is definitely not me. My tears kept falling although my mind tells me not to cry." she added.

Finally, nagsalita rin siya. May pagka-cussing machine siya, ah. But not that much. Just a little bit. Hindi naman bagay sa babae ang nagmumura. Turn off 'yon.

I need to speak up and say anything that maybe, makakapagpagaan sa loob niya.

"Then why do you act affected? At the first place, you already moved on. You're just drowned with the thought that you're still affected about that past that I don't even know how happened. Second, he doesn't deserve even a tear of drop from you. Acting like that could make him think that you're still inlove with him. You said that, it's definitely not you. Then where's the tough and strong Keira Deanne Suarez that I've just met? The girl who brings the hell out of me?" mahaba kong paliwanag sa kaniya.

Now, saan ko naman nakuha yung mga pinagsasasabi ko?

That's strange.

Tsk. Apparently, that's the only thing that I can do. Nasa kaniya na lang kung makakatulong ba yung advice ko.

After a couple of minutes of silence, I left her. She needs to be alone, anyway.

To be continued...