✗| THE ONE ( carson lueders. )

☆《 chapter 42 》☆

last chapter-

Sometimes I just wish I could go away, and one of those times were now.

My eyes start to tear up, tears threatening to fall.

I look over to Johnny, where Lauren was making sure he was okay, asking him questions and what not.

Then, that's when the tears finally fell.

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~Madison's POV~

I just faced back forward, and let all of the tears fall. I silently cried to myself, until Lauren got up and came to me when I didn't answer her.

"Madison we-" She says until she notices my face.

Her face expression turned into worriness, then she looked at Johnny.

"It's okay, Madi. It's all gonna be fine.." She assures me. "Here, I'll leave you and Johnny alone,"

I nod, and she goes to the bathroom, probably to find something for Johnny's face.

I sigh and walk over to him, sitting next to him on the wall. "Hey,"

"Hey," I responded quietly.

He just silently moved one of his hands into mine, and the other to my face where he wiped the tears off my face.

They still seemed to fall, he reminded me too much of what Carson used to do.

He held my hand, and I held back with the same amount of strength.

I put my head on his shoulder, and we just quietly sat there like that. My tears still fell, no matter who did what to try and stop them.

I didn't bother to wipe them, and neither did Johnny. We both knew they weren't gonna stop soon, so we just didn't try.

I forced myself to take a closer look at his face, and he looked pretty messed up.

"Ouch," I say, moving his head around.

I wiped some of my tears off with the back of my hand to clear my vision a bit.

"Yeah.. it's really not that bad though, it'll heal pretty quick," He tried to reassure me.

"Are you sure?" I ask.

"Positive," He smiled.

I sighed, and decided to just give in. It wasn't my face, so I couldn't argue with how it feels.

"Okay.."

We then just sat there in silence again. I didn't know what his reason was to be silent, but mine was because I didn't really know what to say.

"I can't do this," Johnny suddenly burst out, unwrapping his arm from around me and moving away from me.

My face scrunched up and my head shot over to him. "What?"

"I just can't do this to Carson anymore, I'm sorry," He says quickly.

"I think you should.." He paused for a moment. "Just go, please."

It was all so sudden, I became confused. Didn't he just kiss me or something?

I begin to feel like this was all my fault. The whole thing with me kissing Johnny and the whole breakup with Carson.

It's like every thing bad happening is all of a sudden my fault, and I believed it. It probably was all my fault, I was just too blind to see it before.