Rivamika Short Stories

Reflections

“I’m seeing myself in you, Mikasa. So much that I felt I have to save you from becoming like me. You don’t have to take the path Kenny and I have taken. You don’t have to stain your hands. If your heart desire nothing but vengeance, if that’s the only thing you wanted, if that’s your only reason to live, then let me do it.” It was his normal dull voice, but I can taste anguish between his words. It’s as if he too were hurting, sharing the pain I’m currently feeling. I snapped my head to look at him. He was leaning on the doorway, arm-crossed and looking at me. That’s the only time I saw him like that. He looks so… vulnerable.

“You’ve sworn not to kill anymore.” Is he really willing to have his hands in blood again? For me?

“I’m not forgetting that fact.” His stare does not falter, assuring me things I’m not sure I should take.

“Why? Why would you kill for me?” I stood up and went to the windows. I can’t stand his eyes where I can see pain, I can see chaos and hell. But like a moth, I’m drawn to the fire Levi was offering.

“Because you’re like my mirror staring back at me. And I don’t want to see the same empty eyes I have with you. I want to preserve you, prevent you from turning into a monster. I don’t want you to be my mirror.” I can sense his presence behind me, I’m feeling his heat and agony.

“Why would you kill for me, Levi?” My stomach tightens while anticipating his answer. Half of me wanted to hear why the other was berating me for playing with the fire.

It was not his voice that I hear but his hands flying and grasping my shoulders. It was not his answer that killed the silence but my gasp. In an instant, I am in his shoulders. For a moment, I am his. But was sealed into eternity by his quick hesitant peck on my lips. My grip on his shirt tightened, my pupils dilated, my stomach rumbles. His face were still an inch away from mine and months of hiding my emotions took its toll on me, for I reach his lips with certainty that I want him and need him. His hesitation, however, disappeared as his hands cupped my face and his kiss went from light to hungry to passionate. We were catching our breath when our lips parted while his hands dried my tears I’m not even aware I’m shedding.

“Because I love you, Mikasa.” He leaned his forehead to mine while still cupping my face. Maybe this is what I’m hoping for. He is my salvation.

“I don’t want to be your opposite, Levi. I want to be your other half, I want to be your mirror. I am you and you are me. You complete me as I to you. Maybe we are destined to be like this, to be this kind of people. The man I shot, died at the hospital yesterday. I’m done with revenge.”

A week before….

Mikasa  and Levi tried to frame up the guys who killed Eren. They have coordinated with his cop friend, Mike. She will buy the drugs with a marked money and when the authorities caught and jailed the group, they will make them admit they killed Eren. But everything went blurred when one of the guys see through her. An open fire occurred. Mikasa was almost shot at her face but not until she fired and killed the man who gave the final blow to Eren. Simultaneously, Levi jumped at Mikasa and took the bullet for her. Fortunately for them, it only grazed Levi’s cheeks. His wound resembled Mikasa’s old scar. 

A/N: Obviously, this was inspired by Justin Timberlake's Mirrors because I heard it again yesterday after a long time. I know that the RM Senpais have already made a Mirrors-inspired fanfic and of course it was hella better than this fanfic (I don't even know what's this), so you should really check those out. 

PS. Please tell me if this is a bit confusing, because I kinda rushed to post this before I sleep. Anyway, thanks for reading!