Learn Ya

Chapter 12

"I cant stand to see you treated bad, Ill beat his ass for my shawty, and we aint doing nothing that we aint suppose to do," - T.Pain

I waved at Skylar as I headed towards my room.

After I spoke to Scoop, I was comfortable enough to go home. Marcus and Tasha still had Jonathan so they decided to stay at the hospital.

Personally I believe its because Marcus is scared that today would be the thing to make Tasha go into labor. Hell I wouldnt blame her.

I held Luna in my arms and hugged her tightly. Even though she was sleeping, she hugged me even tighter.

I hated that I kept putting my baby in these situations. She has seen and been through things that grown folks wouldn't even be able to handle. All because of me.

I reached in my bag fumbling for my keys. As I searched, I noticed that my vision was getting blurry.

Unwanted tears hit the floor. My hands shook so much that once I found the keys I couldnt unlock the door. I cant take this shit anymore.

"FUCK!"

With Luna still in my arms I slid down the wall unto the floor. The events of today ran through my mind from all angles. My throat began to close up.

It finally hit me. My baby could have been shot too.

I scrambled for my phone and called the only person that I knew could calm me down.

It dialed and dialed. No answer.

I threw my phone against the wall. The name "dontè❤️" fadded across the screen. I knew deep down that I should have known he wasnt going to pick up.

At the end of the day, he feels as if he is the only one thats hurting. The only one that went through today. And now, when I need him most. Hes no where to be found.

At this point, my head felt like somebody was constantly hitting it with a bulldozer. It was much more than today. I felt like everything that I touched was hurt. Any situation that I feel like is going good just gets fucked up. If not the situation, then the people around me.

I just couldn't wrap my head around it.

Luna stirred in my arms as I continued to let the tears flow. I sat there for what seemed like forever.

Until, I heard my door open.

I looked up to see my neighbor, Que. My vision was shot but Id recognized him in pitch black darkness.

With Luna still in my arms he helped us up and walked me into my house saying nothing. 

He followed me as I laid Luna in her room. I prayed our prayer and kissed her forehead. I peeked up in the middle to see Que's head down as a form of respect. 

I walked to my living room and sat on the sofa. He followed. I placed my hands on my face. At this moment, I was numb. I couldnt think, move, and barley breath. I was stuck.

I said nothing. 

I did nothing.

I felt nothing.

To be real, I didnt want to feel anything.

I went to my kitchen and grabbed two glasses and some white wine. Even though I was hurting, I still had enough sense to remember I had work in the morning. 

"Would you like some?" I poured both classes to a reasonable amount and walked them to the coffee table in the living room in front of the couch. 

In repsonse, he just shook his head.