EK BAAR PHIR

Unending thoughts

Avni was in her room which her dear friend Manasi had arranged for her ,everything according to her preferences .She smiled thinking of how her dear friend understood her so well and took so many efforts in doing this for her, though she was busy in her own wedding preparations.

Manasi had always been a dear friend of her and Neil and she was the one who brought the two together.So basically,she acted as a cupid to their pyaar ki kahaani.

Avni couldn't stop smiling thinking of all the beautiful moments they all had spent together , irrespective of how busy they were .

All those moments were priceless .

Though Manasi didn't exactly know what was going wrong in Neil and Avni's relationship,she definitely knew that she was missing out on something .

It was she who was more sad than both of them ,seeing their relationship sink. She always wished happiness for both of her best friends ,because more than friends they were her family .

They were there for her as a strong pillar when a lot of people stood against her for pursuing her dreams .

It was not gratitude,but pure love for them that brought her more close to both of them ,so definitely she couldn't even stand the thought of Avni and Neil's relationship breaking ,by any means .

Avni got up and went to stand near the balcony ,feeling the cool air gushing and enshrouding her soul and body.She startes humming the lullaby her mother used to sing to calm her down whenever she used to throw tantrums .

Aa leke chalu tujhko
Ek aise desh mein
Aa leke chalu tujhko
Ek aise desh mein

Milti hai jaha khushiyan
Pariyon ke bhesh mein
Milti hai jaha kushiyan
Pariyon ke bhesh mein

As she finished singing ,a tear drop tell from her eye to the ground .
Her Neela maa was everything she had.She couldn't make her sad even by a word which is why she had agreed for the marriage proposal right away ,even when her mind couldn't get away from Neil's thoughts .

But now ,when she thinks about it ,it was a right decision .

Neil doesn't deserve her time and love .

He who was not there for her when she needed him the most would never ever understand her and her feelings .

He would never understand how much her family means to her.

For him it is all about "his life ", "his happiness" .It is just him.He can go to any extent for that .

This made her feel that she couldn't give him another chance to play with her life and make her a fool over again .

Once she struggled with ,but if it happens again she wouldn't be able to survive .

She couldn't play with her emotions again,not even in her dreams.

"Better face the reality than hiding away from it "

This thought guided her mind and thought process from the time he left her to face the harsh reality .She knew that she couldn't hide from marriage for much long .So finally when it came to her ,she eventually had to accept it owing to the emotional blackmailing of her mother and due to the fact that her own heart had cheated her in that form of Neil.

Chiding away all the thoughts ,she decided to enjoy her best friend's shaadi in the most earnest way,leaving aside her worries for a while .

There is only one life .Then why waste it in darkness and despair .