Tell Me You Love Me

We get what we deserve.

Previously...
Rachel's p.o.v.
"It doesn't get any easier does?" Finn says tucking my hair behind my ear. I sadly shake my head.

"I love you." I say.

"I love you too." He replies then kisses me one last time.
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Rachel's p.o.v.
And just like that. My dream tour is over. And man was it a dream. Every little thing about it was incredible. I can't wait to do it again one day.

When I was on tour there was a lot of hard things too though, like missing Finn was the main thing. Also on the tour I found out some insanely shocking news. Let's just say that. But I've learned to accept it. And I'm so excited to start this next faze of my life. It might be a little soon but I'm ready. We're just taking it one step at a time. My next step is Finn. I'm finally seeing him after two months of missing him every second.

We pull up to my studio parking lot. I stand up and bolt out the door the minute we stop. I get out and look around. Where's Finn? He said he was gonna be here right when we pulled up? I stand there for a couple minutes when suddenly he quickly pulls up in his car out of nowhere. I smile as he gets out of the car.

I run up to him, jump into his arms, and give him the biggest hug. He waits a second then finally hugs me back.

"I've missed you so much." I say taking in his scent. He takes a deep shaky breath.

"I've missed you too." He says quickly. I pull away and kiss him on the lips.

"I love you." I say smiling.

"I love you too." He says smiling. I look into his eyes and read them for a couple seconds. I immediately tell something isn't right. He gulps nervously.

I decide to just shake off the weird feeling and focus on this moment.

"Well are you ready to go home?" I say happily.

"More than ready." He says with a smile. I say goodbye to everyone then we're off to Finn's house.

Finn's p.o.v.
Me and Rachel got back a little bit ago. She said she was exhausted and not really feeling good so now we're just sitting on the couch. I look down and see her cuddling in my arms just staring at the tv. She's so pure and sweet. She would never do anything to hurt me.

So how could I ever hurt her? I feel so guilty. She's the best thing to ever happen to me. Why couldn't I have ignored the temptations? I kiss her head as the tears start flowing down my face and onto her head. She stops for a second then gets out of my grasp and sits up.

She turns around and stares at me.

"Finn?" She asks concerned but I don't respond or look at her. She put her hands on my cheeks and turns my face towards her. I stare into her beautiful eyes.

"Finn what's going on? You've been acting weird ever since I got back. Are you ok? You know you can tell me anything." She says. I can't lie to her. It would kill me even more if I pretend like nothing ever happened.

Rachel's p.o.v.
"I was with someone Rachel."

My heart stops. I let go of his face and just stare into his guilty eyes. I feel like my whole world just stopped. I can't feel, speak, or move. Just with those few words I feel as if everything was just ripped away from me without warning.

"W-What?" I say tearing up. "How could you?" I whisper with tears softly starting to fall down my cheeks.

"I'm so sorry."He says putting his hand over mine begging for forgiveness. I harshly rip my hand away from his. He jumps at my sudden movement.

"I can't do this right now. What am I gonna do? I have nothing left... I need to leave. I can't be here." I say getting up and panicking.

"Please Rachel stop. Don't go." He says as he gets up and stands in front of me.

"No!!! I will not stop or listen to anything you have to say. Your words can't cover up what you did. After everything we've been through you had to be so selfish and just forget about me for the four months I was gone! What kind of insensitive person would do that? Especially at a time like this. You knew how much this would affect me after what happened with my previous relationship!!" I say with tears streaming down my face uncontrollably.

"I didn't know what to do with myself Rachel! You barley contacted me ever since I last saw you and I was losing my mind. I needed you! And you weren't there! I can't do life without you! Please Rach. It was a mistake. It didn't mean anything." He says begging me. I laugh bitterly.

"It was a mistake? Oh really now. Don't you dare pin this on me. You were the one that encouraged me to do that tour! And for god sakes it was four months Finn! If you really couldn't resist your damn self after that short amount of time how am I supposed to trust you for the rest of our lives?! Huh? Tell me." He just stands there in shock not saying anything.

"Tell me!!!" I demand.

"I- I-" He stutters.

"That's exactly what I thought. You didn't even need to answer. I already knew." I say sobbing.

"I'm so sorry. Please Rachel please." He says panicking at the sight of me falling apart in front of him. He tries to reach his hand out to me. I jerk away once again. I look up at him.

"Don't you dare. Figure your shit out Finn. And until then, I'm done." I say grabbing my bags and leaving him there.

I run up the apartment building stairs and knock rapidly on the door.

"Coming!!" I hear her shout. She happily opens the door then she sees my face. She stops in her tracks.

"Rach? What's wrong?" She says concerned.

"Quinn.... I can't do this. My life is such a mess! I can't get anything right and it's impossible to know where it's gonna go next." I say braking down and hugging her. She pulls me into her apartment and brings me over to her couch.

Finn's p.o.v.
I hear a knock on my door. I wipe my tears then get up. I open it and see Sam not looking the happiest.

"So you told her. Finally you told her. She came to Quinn's apartment and fell apart. She looked devastated. Quinn's still trying to calm her down." He says annoyed coming in.

"You think I'm proud of this? I feel like shit for the way I broke her, the way I completely lost her trust. You should have seen her eyes man. Her eyes when I told her. She looked so broken. So lifeless all because of me! I never knew I could cause so much pain. I got so caught up in everything that I was missing about Rachel and I knew I couldn't get that until a couple months so I went to the bar and hooked up with a drunken mistake just because I couldn't wait. I'm never gonna forgive myself. I mean how could I be so ignorant and stupid?!" I say trying not to fall apart. Sam just looks at me not knowing what to say.

"You know the worst thing is? Her face. Her face keeps replaying over and over again. She never looked so fragile." I say.

"You messed up the best thing in your life. And you might not ever get that back. You need to learn to ignore your wants and focus on what you have. Cause in your case Rachel is gonna be better than any other girl you could have. I don't know if or when she's gonna ever forgive you after what you did. But no one can blame her. You kinda deserved it." He says. I nod.

I nod at him tearing up. I don't know what I'm gonna do or what's next.