I have been thinking.
I can't be with someone who loves another woman at the same time.
I can't be with someone who is being called papi by another woman and he calls her mami at the same time because that's how we call each other.
If you really loved me, you wouldn't fall for her in the first place, no matter what others or I said or do because true love should be strong enough to prevent you to love another woman.
If you really loved me, you should stop communicating with her without me asking to, which by the way you promised you would do when you asked me back and I said yes.
You broke my trust.
I don't want to be the second choice or priority or back up, not now, not ever.
For me, my man will always be the only one I love because I can't love two men at the same time. I don't have the capability to do that.
My love is only one and never cross my mind to divide it.
And so, I can't be with someone who divides his love for two women.
Love should not be a competition.
You want me to fight you back but you can't even let her go.
You have made up your mind and showed me you chose her instead of me many times.
I was a fool to believe you really loved me, while you have stopped loving me the day you defended her and let me cry alone.
I don't want to be in that position again, because it hurt me like hell, it still does.
And yet, I was a fool to think you still love enough and I fell in love with you again.
It seems my love and effort will never be good enough for you.
I could only wish you loved me as much as I love you (I still do).
So, I accept your goodbye.
Again, sorry for all the things I have done that hurt you.
Goodbye....
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November '18
An actual note with slight revision.
