FIGHTING FOR WILLA

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

WILLA

I made a mistake coming with Mark on this corporate retreat. We haven’t been on this flight for 15 minutes and I can feel Alex’s eyes on me constantly. I shift in my seat for the second time in the last five minutes hoping Mark doesn’t notice how Alex keeps staring .

Mark told me late last night that we are staying in Alex’s house in North Carolina for the trip ,and I can’t help but dread it ,North Carolina is where we grew up together It's where our beginning and end is rooted. I let my eyes drift to Alex for a second and immediately regret it his gaze catches mine and holds me hostage even though I know I should look away I can’t. Five years is a long time and I let myself drink him in for the first time. He has slight frown lines I imagine are from work stress .His build is also slightly bigger he was always very health conscientious and muscled but he is more so now I can see his suit straining against his arms. Arms that surrounded me as I fell asleep when I was scared…

I snap myself out of my reverie but catch his annoyingly beautiful smirk. Dammit, he knew exactly where my mind was going. I send a glare in return and focus my attention on Mark. “So ,do you know what activities they have planned? “ I ask conversationally.

“Yeah I have some idea, but we receive a full itenary when we arrive. Don’t worry we’re going to have a lot of fun ,apparently his retreats are less corporate and more like a vacation and summer camp combined.”

We spend the rest of the flight watching a movie and munching on snacks. When we land there are taxi’s waiting to take us to Alex’s home. As we drive I see the old familiar surroundings and dread everything about this place. As soon as my feet hit the driveway I am flooded with memories…The porch swing, our swing where we spent hours making out when we just started dating. I catch a glance of the large pond where we caught frogs when we were little and where we really fought for the first time .

I jump when I feel him next to me, also gazing at the pond. “Feel like a swim? “ he leans in and whispers. I actually shiver as I am assaulted by the memory.

“Who the hell do you think you are? “ I shout as I storm towards Alex who is skipping stones on the pond.

“What are you– he starts but I don’t give him a chance to talk.

”You seriously forbade Trevor from dating me? “ I yell again.

He smirks he actually smirks “Oh that, you’re welcome. “he says in an innocent tone which infuriates me .

“What do you mean I am welcome I wanted to go out with him!” He looks annoyed and slightly angry by that.

“He isn’t good enough for you” he simply says.

Things had shifted between me and Alex lately I lied and told Alex that I had finally kissed a boy in the hope that he would get jealous and finally tell me if he felt something for me but instead he started hooking up with more girls than usual and ignoring me. So I accepted the fact that he didn’t have feelings for me, but now that I wanted to date he scared of every guy.

“So what I am just suppose to be alone while you sleep through the whole cheerleading team? How is that fair?”.

“You are to young to date anyway”

“Bullshit “I challenge “Tell me the real reason! “

“You deserve better “ he lies and I snap shoving him back into the pond.

“No, no more lies tell me why you won’t let me try to be happy without you. “I yell

“Fuck, Because I love you ,you idiot. “he whispers standing in the water I shoved him into. He is wearing a white V-neck shirt so I can see every contour and ridge of his six-pack.

My mind is still reeling but in the next moment I feel his lips crash into mine ,his hands on my waist pulling me into the water as we kiss for the first time.

I shove him away “No, I don’t understand there were always other girls even after I tried to tell you that I love you.”

He sighs “I didn’t want to believe that you really loved me because I don’t deserve you I am trouble Willa, but I don’t care anymore you are mine. “He says fiercely than kisses me again.

I am snapped back to the present when I feel his fingers grazing my arm. “That was a long time ago “ I shake of his hand and make my way inside where the rest of the guests including Mark are busy taking their luggage inside.