If Only...

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I stared at Suga blankly and muttered lowly underneath my breath. "If only I could remember-"

He looked down at me and said "He loves you. I hope you know that. And I hope that among all the other things, you will never forget how much he truly loves and cares for you.
When we heard about your crash, he wouldn't stop crying about how much he would've given to be the one that was hit. He doesn't want you to be hurt. You mean the actual world to him."

I looked deep into Suga's eyes and asked him "But what if he doesn't mean the world to me anymore? What then?"

He looked back towards where Jin had walked out. "Then it'll break his heart."

I looked down at my hands as he continued.

"But sometimes it pays to be honest. Both in a good way. . .and a not so good way."

I shifted my eyes on him and gingerly asked "What if he's not the one I want? What if I'm in love with-"

I stopped and took a breath before I finished.

"You?"

He patted the back of my hand and stood up. "I hate to do this, but I refuse to break a vow I made with my brother the day we met. I can't love someone that he currently loves. I would never violate that code. I'm very sorry."

He looked a little hurt. I was even more so. Suga walked back out of the hospital room.

After a little while, it started getting very hard for me to breathe.

I tried sitting up, but I felt like I was drowning in my own fluids.
I tried screaming, but I just couldn't manage to get any noise out.
I gave up and my eyes shut.
The heart monitor was beeping out of control.
I stopped fighting it.
I let it take me whole.


AN// OoooOOOOOHHHHH THE TEA IS PIPING SIS!
What do you think is happening? What do you think will happen?

And can we just talk about how beautiful this boy is???

*Also PSA I am not a doctor and I have no current intentions on becoming one

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*Also PSA I am not a doctor and I have no current intentions on becoming one. So I apologize for all of the mistakes in the previous and possibly future medical talks.*

Thank you❤

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