What I don't know about love
(written on September 22nd, in the morning, at a school camp. Inspiration for this poem came from the fact that I felt like I completely misunderstood the definition of love, true love. I didn't know the difference between love and simple infatuation. I've had many crushes that ended for many different reasons and one day, it all lined up as to why it mostly never worked out liking them. It was mostly from my internal issues with my self confidence and expression. I felt immature and ridiculous and like I lacked experience to something that I felt everyone around me other than me had experienced in some kind of way. I'm still working on myself and being at terms with accepting love and not letting my internal insecurities stop me, and I feel like I'm getting better. I know that when the time is right and I have my self fixed up, true love will come.)
What I don't know about love
What I don't know, is how to unconditionally love,
For a fear that it will never be returned
What I don't know, is how to really move on
When my heart has been broken again
I don't know how to stay strong for someone,
When I can't stay strong for me
I don't know how to kiss and hug
Because I've never gotten the same thing
I don't know how to love someone, because I still don't love me
And I can't always accept people's flaws
Because I still don't accept me
I can talk and I can write, but it can never be described
The feeling of love that is always left behind
I can crush, I can adore, but I can never repair
The hurt in my eyes after a broken stare
And the years go by, and my soul turns old
A true love story, is a story not being told
And I grow out of people, like I grow out of clothes
And I change the names of the ones I held close
Because, you see with me it's like a game
And I can tell you a million stories of boys that left and came
There's no one waiting for me, so at the end of the day
I pack up my broken pieces, and I make my separate way
YOU ARE READING
Maria's thoughts: Inside the mind of the chick in the back of the classroom
Non-FictionAs you may know, writing has always been my absolute passion and my way of escape. Another one of my absolute favorite things in the world is helping people, and having people trust me. I absolutely love bringing happiness to people and forming deep...
