Anyway The Wind Blows

Chapter 6~ Misfire

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Johns POV

I sat in my room silently waiting for Roger and Brian to get back, they were taking longer than expected and I did not appreciate it. I was nervous, just waiting for a knock on my door from Freddie, I knew he would knock because he's been trying to talk to me every chance we get alone. Anxiety overtook me and I curled up into a small ball under my covers and tried to shut out the world.

And just as I predicted Freddie had knocked on the door just seconds later and I felt all the color drain from my body. I just tried to ignore him but he wouldn't stop, "Deaks, come on, I think we need to talk!" Fred said through my door sounding almost desperate. I kept silent under my covers as I heard the door turn and cursed myself for letting the boys have keys to my room for emergencies. I closed my eyes tightly as I heard Fred walk over to the head of my bed and felt my covers lift up. I groaned in annoyance and turned the other way. "Come on Deaks, we both knew this was gonna happen sooner or later.." I still kept silent and let Fred walk over to the other side of the bed.

He looked down at me and tried to cover up a laugh because of the face I was making. I was attempting to look mad but everyone always says I cant. I didn't want to talk and despite my facade I was nervous and felt like crying. "John, about the other night..."Fred sat down on my bed and my face reverted back to its natural look. "I just wanted to see if you were okay.." "I'm fine Fred", I croaked out, my voice still scratchy from my earlier crying session. "John I don't think that's true.. You ran out on us you know..." "I was just a bit overwhelmed with our new album coming out, that's all Fred" I had lied straight to his face. I felt horrible but i couldn't tell him about my feelings, not yet. "Okay, well let me know if you want to talk about anything John, i'm always happy to listen dear.." and with that Fred got up off of my bed and exited my room.

I felt a little relieved, but more sad than anything because I enjoyed his presence more than I thought I would. I felt so conflicted at this point, my head filled with so many thoughts of everything, even though I was pretty sure I liked Fred it was difficult for me to be around him even though we're best mates.

Freddie's POV

I exited Johns room after that small talk and felt knots in my stomach. I felt awful that I couldn't help him and I just wanted him to be happy. I went out into the living room to watch the tele and the phone suddenly rang so I picked it up answering to a giggling Brian. "Uhm hey Fred, it's Bri, I just wanted to let you know that Rog and I were gonna go have some more fun and stay out a while, please apologize to John for me about his tea, I hope he's doing alright..." "Yes of course I'll let Deaky know, don't have too much fun though boys" I said in a sly tone making Roger laugh and Brian scoff on the other side of the phone, undoubtedly blushing too.

I headed back to the couch to turn on the tele when I turned it on, I left my feet on the floor and sat lazily, slouching. My foot hit someone book like that was slightly sticking out from underneath the couch so I bent down to pick it up assuming it was Rogers or Brians because Deaky is so neat. When I picked it up I had to do a double take as I had a men's porno magazine sitting in my hands. My eyes went wide since it wasn't one of mine, I keep mine very well hidden so I don't risk any chance of the boys finding them, that's the last thing I need, Roger flinging my gay pornos around the flat everywhere as if the boys didn't already know I was gay.

Anyways, I picked it up thinking the only possible candidate would be Deaky with how strange he's been acting towards me, and because of my incredible gaydar. I looked through the magazine and let me tell you, it was a good one, John has good taste. I thought to myself that I should probably leave it be, but I had to confront John about this, just to be sure...

Johns POV

I was napping until I heard a knock at my door and sat up right away feeling panicked, my knob slowly turned and I realized I forgot to lock my door after Freddie walked out. I had lost track of time while napping so I was hoping Bri had returned with my tea by now. I was slightly upset that it was Freddie again, but he told me that Bri and Rog were gonna stay out some more so I had to wait for my tea, which made me frown.

Just as Freddie was about to walk out again and I had gotten comfortable in bed, he turned on his heel with a sly look in his eyes which made me nervous. He pulled out a rolled up magazine from his back pocket and lifted it up to my face, and when I saw what it was my face went pale. The magazine was indeed mine but he didn't need to know that. "John is this yours?" Fred asked condescendingly while I replied with a short "No" a little too quickly, "aHA so it iS yourS Johnnyboy!" he shrieked out with laughter.

Quickly the look in Fred's eyes turned from amusement to.....lust? He slowly walked over to me, still in bed, while I turned away from him trying to hide my growing blush. I didn't think it was that obvious that the magazine was mine. I mentally cursed myself for being so careless and leaving that just lying around.

Fred sat down on my bed next to me and put his hand on my lower thigh making me shiver slightly. I refused to face his way so he roughly took my chin in his hand and turned my face towards him. I gasped at the sudden movement while Freddie stared me down with his dark brown eyes, I felt my cheeks heat up with his intense gaze on me. " So this is yours Deaky? You're a very naughty boy, do you like these things? I bet you do" Fred said in a low voice that made me want to hide myself again. He then grabbed me under the covers and I let out an unexpected little whimper.

I felt myself growing hot while Fred smirked at me noticing what was happening under the covers. I tried to hide myself with a pillow but it was quickly snatched out of my hands by Freddie. I was taken aback when Fred leaned into me and whispered into my ear "Naughty boy Deacon" agonizingly slow, then licked the shell of my ear. I was at a loss for words as I swallowed thickly, I could feel my face get even more red if that was even possible.

Freddie pulled back and looked me up and down with a smirk plastered on his face taking in the sight of my flustered face. He then leaned into me attaching his lips to mine except this time I didn't try to pull away. I melted into the kiss and and finally accepted all of my feelings, Fred took my bottom lip in between his teeth and pulled on it, evoking a moan from both of us.

I knew Fred got me more hot and bothered more than anyone else, but there was more than just physical attraction here. He made me feel so special, especially when I first joined the band.. I was so nervous but he made me feel like I was truly apart of the band, not that Brian and Roger weren't welcoming but Freddie really made me want to stay, and he helped me push away my anxieties. I knew I loved him as a friend but I must have mistaken my romantic love as a friendly one in the past. As all these thoughts filled my head the kiss got more passionate as all the memories of Freddie making me happy filled my head and I realized I really loved him. I wanted more of him...

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