Anyway The Wind Blows

Chapter 5~ My Melancholy Blues

Happy Valentine's Day Guys!! Sorry for taking so long to update again, but I appreciate all the reads and I hope you enjoy this next chapter!
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Johns POV

I woke up with a splitting headache, I immensely regret going to drink last night, normally I'm not even one to do that sort of thing. My massive hangover of course, meant things happened that I wouldn't remember. I attempted to get up out of bed, really just rolling out and tried to make myself some tea, hoping that I would be the only one up. I wanted to spare myself from explaining what had happened last night. I wobbled out of my room groggily and found what appeared to be a hungover Freddie. I silently tried to shuffle past him to get the tea kettle, but that obviously wouldn't work as he's Freddie Mercury. "Ugh John, could you make me some tea as well?" "sure" I quietly squeaked out. At this point I didn't care if I had to face Fred because of my massive hangover and i'm pretty sure Freddie didn't care either.

Brian and Roger walked out of their respective rooms and shuffled out to the living room, "God John you scared the bloody hell out of us last night" Brian spoke worriedly and quite loudly, especially for someone who had just woke up. I wanted to tell Brian so badly to be quiet, but I couldn't let him know I had a hangover so I just quietly groaned out a "sorry." Roger suspiciously walked up to me and observed my face making my cheeks heat up in embarrassment, "Woah mate, are you..hungover? Looks like you got a little crazy last night Hm?" Roger obnoxiously spat out. "Oh Deaky and I both dear" Fred chuckled trying to not make his headache worse. Brian looked at me wide eyed and shocked like he had just found out his 15 year old daughter was pregnant "John, I'm surprised, you aren't the drinking type" Freddie and Roger just laughed  at Brian while he stood there like a concerned mother and I wanted to go back into my room because my bandmates were really annoying me right now.

As I headed back into my room, Freddie and Roger stayed out in the living room but I could hear Brian's footsteps behind me trying to catch up to me. Anxiety about last night flooded into my body suddenly and I couldn't answer any questions Brian might have for me so I started speed up my walking but before I could reach my door Brian stopped me and grabbed my arm turning me around to face him. "Hey John are you alright? Roger and I were both worried sick about you last night since you just ran out like that" I felt my cheeks heat up as the events of last night flooded back into my head, I couldn't look Brian in the eyes. "I'm just having some troubles right now Bri, nothing to worry about, it's just stress about the new songs." I smiled weakly trying to reassure him, but Brian's grip didn't falter, "John I can tell when you're lying, and I know you wouldn't go out drinking over something so small....Please tell me what's going on, does it have something to do with Fred?" His last few words made my face turn pale and my stomach sink. "Fine we can talk....But can we please talk about this in my room Brian?"

Freddie's POV

While John scurried off to his room and Brian chased after him again, Roger and I sat out in the living room together while Roger laughed at my hangover, him finally not being the hungover. "Would you stop that obnoxious laughing darling, you sound like a bloody horse and you're aggravating my headache." I hissed at Roger, "Ahem, sorry Fred" Roger said quietly and shut up. I was still confused and upset about last night but I masked it well, being the great pretender that I am.

I wanted to straight up confront John about last night, but not with the boys here and I still don't know if John even remembered everything that happened, and if he did it sure didn't seem like it.

Johns POV

Each step felt harder to make as we got closer to my room and I wanted to bolt out the door again, I felt like I couldn't breathe and my eyes started to water as I sat down on my bed face to face with Brian. Without even letting Brian take a breath I broke out with "I t-think I like men Brian...but I'm so confused too and I hate keeping all these feelings to myself." If I was on the verge of tears before, I was for sure sobbing now and any chance of me trying to stop crying was pointless. I broke down right in front of one of my best mates and he was there for me, comforting me. Brian simply sat closer to me and patted my back while I basically cried in his arms. I looked up him and choked out "And I t-think I-I l-like Fred too" in between sobs. Brian sat with me long enough to calm me down so we could have a reasonable conversation.

Freddie's POV

Roger and I sat in a comfortable silence for a little bit until we both heard a quiet sob coming from Johns room. We both looked at each other with worried and confused faces assuming it was John crying.

You could hear everything better from Johns room, considering it was the closest to the living room. Roger looked at me with a devilish look on his face, "No" I silently mouthed at him, even though I wanted to listen in on their conversation just as bad, but I had always tried to respect my mates privacy, especially if were living in such close quarters. "Come on just a little bit, maybe we can help John with his issues if we listen" Roger whispered at me already getting off of the couch, "No" I sternly said back to him, I could see his true intentions and I wasn't stupid, I knew he was just being a nosy idiot.

I got up to stop Roger and pull him back down onto the couch, "Aw come on Fred, we all live together, therefore there's no such thing as privacy, remember when we all walked in on John with his little accident? Plus I know you wanna know just as bad as I do." He wasn't wrong but I have strong morals plus I felt as if it were something about me that I didn't wanna hear or shouldn't hear, at least not yet. Roger finally stopped his protest and stuck his tongue out at me, "You're no fun Fred!" Roger said sounding like a five year old.

Johns POV

I wiped my eyes of any last tears and looked at him with nervous and expecting eyes. Brian spoke quietly as to not trigger me agin as if I were a sleeping baby, "John we all still love you the same and obviously the rest of the boys wouldn't judge you, especially Freddie, and as for your feelings towards him...well I think you should talk to Fred yourself, but when you're ready." Brian really was the best person to talk to, definitely the mother of the group, but his words really calmed me down and I felt as if a weight had been lifted off of my chest.

"How about some tea to calm the nerves John?" Brian asked gently. I silently nodded happy that I had finally talked to Brian about my problems. Brian walked out to make some tea for me while I sat warmly in my comfy bed. Brian poked his head back in after about 5 minutes and told me there wasn't any tea left so he was going to the store with Roger to get some more. That made my stomach drop and I felt panicky again, I couldn't be left alone with Fred, not yet. Brian sensed my worry and walked over to me, trying to comfort me again "Don't worry Deaks, when you're ready, no hurry, just hang out in here til Roger and I get back, I promise it'll be fast." I calmed down more and realized Brian was right, I could just hide out in my room.

Freddie's POV

Just as I was about to smack Roger for being annoying Brian came out of Johns room looking exhausted but satisfied. Hey I'm going to make some tea real quick, "Ah I used the rest of it the other day Bri" Roger said quickly "But I'll go to the store with you to get some more" "Alright then" Brian said annoyed "Let me just go tell John real quick we're heading out to the store" After he popped his back in Johns room and came out to the living him and Roger grabbed their coats and keys and left for the store.

Nervousness and excitement overcame me when they left because now I could finally confront John about last night, but now I was scared too and I felt as though John wouldn't be too happy about it either. I sat debating the positives and negatives of confronting John now vs later and came to the conclusion that now would be better.