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p r e s e n t

Today is my high school reunion, it has been a while since I've been in there. It starts at five o'clock and currently it's three so I should start getting ready.
I dress myself into decent attire but nothing fancy, plus the invite said nothing about formal wear.
I walked out of my apartment building head headed towards my old jeep. It's now four thirty.

I arrived at the place I hate the most and park my vehicle, there were a lot of familiar faces walking in and out of the building. Some girls were in dresses and some guys were in suits, man I feel underdressed. I walk in and hear blasting music coming from the gym, almost like prom. In the gym there was a long table with drinks and snacks on it for us to grab. Lots of people were in groups just talking with one another, probably chatting about how somebody changed over the ten years of not seeing each other.
I sit down at an empty table and slowly start to drink my water. I start looking around the gym and spot the person I thought I would never see again...

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Moon Sohyun.

She didn't change much since the last time I saw her, the same gray hair but instead it was her tips that were dyed. And the same biker look, but it seemed a little bit more modernized she wore black ripped jeans, a black and white checkered crop top, a black leather jacket, and some boots. I stared at her and noticed that the crop top she wore had revealed her abs, man she must of worked out a lot the past years!

I stood up and went to the food table and grabbed a bag of chips. I then just stood like three feet away from her, waiting for the moment she would accidentally run into me, giving me a reason to talk to her.
I stood there for a while, seeking glances every once in a while of her talking with Annie. And suddenly she turned around. I slowly made my way to the bathroom hoping that we would bump into each other. I kept on going and we were a foot away from each other, I looked down so I could see where her feet were going to step. And suddenly I felt a thud, score!

She looked up at me with a smile, I miss seeing her smile. "Oh I'm sorry! I wasn't looking, could I do anything for you to apologize?" Still thoughtful as before. We stared at each other for a second and her smile slowly disappeared. "It's you, well I gotta get going I have stuff to do at my house," her tone changed from a sweet one to a rough one. She walked passed me and bumped her shoulder into mine. I turned and grabbed her wrist.
"Wait just one last time! Can a please just explain everything?!" I begged. She sighed and tugged her hand from mine.
"Fine but make it short," she said firmly. We walked out of the gym and to the foyer where it was quiet. "Okay spill it," she said with slight frustration in her voice.

I took a deep breath and began. "First thing is I would like to say I am sorry for breaking up with you out of the blue like that. I know you loved me when I asked you out, but at that time I didn't feel the same as you did-"
"Then why bother to ask in the first place?" She asked somewhat annoyed.

"Well you see that's how it all started, Mark blackmailed me into dating you for three weeks then dumping you right after-and before you ask! He told me if I didn't he would tell people my family secrets, and I really didn't want people to know about my personal life."
"May I ask what this secret is?"
"Uh, as long as you promise you won't say anything."
"I promise," she said a little more cheerfully.

"Okay, when I was little my dad used to abuse my mom, verbally and physically. He did it for ten years and my mom couldn't handle it anymore so she took her own life away from herself," I confessed. "The only person I told this to was Mark, he was my best friend, I remember he told me that even if I didn't commit to the dare he would never tell anyone my secret because the whole plan was to get us to fall in love. I lost him, Annie, and you. I guess I didn't see the people that cared for me were right in front of me at that time. And I'm sorry I hurt you, that was the worst decision I've ever made in my life, losing you. After that I spent nights without sleep thinking about what I did and what we could of been if I didn't say those evil words. And I know you probably won't take me back after all that has happened but I hope that you don't hate me, you don't have it like me but I don't want to be remembered as the hated one by you," I explained.

She stood still, in shock? Or in anger? "I'm sorry about your family and I hope that it gets better. And I'm sorry but I won't take you back," my chest tightened up, "but I will say that I don't hate you, I understand your reason behind everything and maybe we can become friends once again, but we'll let the future decide that. Well I really have to get going soon, my boyfriend will start getting worried," and there it was my heart shattered, is this what it felt like when I broke her heart?

"Oh a boyfriend? Do I know the guy? What's his name?" I asked
"You don't know him, he went to a different school, he's name is Na Jaemin," she said awkwardly.
"Oh well I wish you two the best if luck. I know this might be weird but can I have a hug, I mean this might be the last time we see each other?" I ask knowing that the answer will be no.
"Sure," she said and put her arms out, coming towards me, followed and we were in each other's arms.

It felt like the first time I hugged her, warm and safe. If only this feeling could last forever. I realize that the hug was starting to come to an end so I quickly whisper something in her ear. "I'm sorry, good luck, stay safe, and I love you." I quickly released myself from her arms run out of the building in tears, hopped in my car and drove home.
Tears started running down my checks as I was driving, knowing that that would be the last time I would ever feel the same warmth, and safeness.

I walked into my apartment complex and dragged my feet to my room. I went into my closet and found an old cardboard box labeled HIGH SCHOOL MEMORIES. I dug around it finding my graduation cap, and other milestone trophies from high school, until I found what I was looking for....

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The picture that Sohyun and I took on the ferris wheel together, the night of our first date, and the night I fell for her.