I walked into the bathroom to clean up. I was just so tired of this. Tilly soon walked in.
"Does it hurt."
She said pointing to the stiches in my head.
"No"
I said sadly
"How do you do it."
She said.
"Do what?"
"Stay strong?"
"Tilly"
I sighed and pulled her into a hug.
"Really though, How?"
"I didn't have a choice."
I said sadly
I don't know where Jordan went but Tilly left to see if she could go find him. I wanted to go but I don't think Jordan really wants to see me right now. I've never seen Jordan act like that, yet again I've never had a real boyfriend up until now. I left my room to go into Damon's. I walked in to see him in the bathroom holding a rag up to his bloody face. He didn't notice me until I spoke.
"Here, let me help."
I said taking the rag from him. I patted the counter signaling for him to sit on which he did.
"I'm sorry,"
I said holding the rag to his face.
"Don't be sorry, you did nothing wrong."
He said concerned.
"Why did you tell Jordan."
I asked.
"I had too. He deserves to know, and even though he punched me in the face, he's important to you therefore he's important to me, even if he's a di-"
"Hey!"
I chuckled.
"He's really not like that I promise."
I continued.
"I know, he has a right to be mad, I'm a monster."
He said sadly looking down.
"Hey look at me."
I said lifting his face to face mine. He looked into my eyes, I could tell he was regretful, but at the end of the day I didn't want to join the gang. I doubt Damon did either.
"You're not a monster. You're a hero."
I said planting a kiss on his forehead.
"I love you amore."
He said bashfully.
"I love you too."
I said.
We sat there for awhile just staring into eachothers eyes until I heard the door open and close roughly. I sighed knowing Jordan had returned.
"Don't move, just stay here. I'll handle this."
I said leaving the bathroom and entering the other bedroom.
"Just talk to her."
I could hear Tilly say from the other room. I walked in and there eyes met mine.
"I'll let you two talk."
Tilly said leaving the room.
I sat down on one of the beds and Jordan sat on the opposite one to face me. I thought of what to say for a while and we just sat in silence.
"Nobody wants to join the gang Jor."
I said.
"I know but-"
He said
"He cares about me Jordan, and believe it or not he cares about you too."
I said.
"I know but-"
He said but I continued.
"Jordan he pulled us out of the celler after mom got to us remember?"
I said.
"Kinsey, he was the reason we were in the cellar in the first place."
He said, frustrated.
"No that was Xanders fault and you know it."
I said.
"Kinsey he hurt you."
He raised his voice and stood up causing me to flinch.
"So did you."
I yelled back. He was caught off guard.
"What are you talking about"
He said confused.
"You left me Jordan, you left me and made me think you were dead. You made me hate myself because I knew you were gone."
I yelled. I didn't want him to know that, I made him think that I had moved on but tired of faking it. I threw a hand over my mouth, I had said too much.
"Kinsey!"
He yelled, getting closer. I didn't think I would ever be scared of Jordan but at that moment I was.
"Get away from her! Can't you see? You're scaring her."
Damon said running into the room.
I looked back at Jordan. His eyes teared up and he now realised that Damon was right. He looked down at his clenched fists then looked back up to face me. He walked backwards and sat down on the bed.
"Kinsey I-I"
Jordan said.
"Just save it."
I said slowly getting up and following Damon into the other room. Tilly joined Jordan in the other room and tried to calm him down.
I was walking with Damon who noticed how much I was shaking. We walked into the other room and he closed the door and locked it so that I wouldn't have to deal with Jordan.
The second he closed it and it was just the two of us alone my knees gave in and I fell to the ground. I couldn't handle this. Valerie was gone. My parents, dead. My brother, heaven knows what's going on with him. All I do is wreck everything.
I couldn't control my sobs. Damon crouched down to my side and picked me up bridal style over to the bed. He lied me down and I just cried into his chest. I looked up to see him crying as well but he didn't want me to see. He closed his eyes and whispered into my ear.
"It's okay just sleep mi amore."
I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
-Kinsey
