The Diary Of A Broken Girl

Chapter Three

⚠️ WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS ABUSE!! ⚠️
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Dear Bully,

I was late to school.

My father was hitting me with a baseball bat to my ribs because I didn't make him breakfast when he wanted me to. I think that one or two of my ribs are broken and it's hard to breath and walk but I don't let anyone see the pain I'm going through.

Before going to my first class I accidentally bumped into Max literally. He pushed me to the ground and said

"No one wants you here. You have no friends. Your mother died because she doesn't love you and couldn't stand to see you anymore. I'm surprised that you haven't killed yourself yet. You know that's what you deserve."

Before leaving he kicked me twice and walked down the hallway as if nothing happened. The worst part of that was that I'm starting to believe him.

I mean what if it's true?

What if they all think I'm better off dead?

No one would miss me my father doesn't even think I'm worthy of a bed or food. If I'm lucky I get to eat something small once or twice a day but that might be a good thing since other girls call me fat so it must be true.

I'm 45.1kg so I still meet to lose some more weight. I think for a 16 year old girl I need to be a maximum of 30kg.

Most of the time I starve myself instead of cutting because it's easier to skip a meal or three than to clean up the blood and hide the scars for everyone.

Anyway by the time lunch time came around I decided that today I'm going to the cafeteria to eat instead Of under the tree at the back of the school where i normally go for lunch.

I had been sitting at the table in the far back corner of the cafeteria for five minutes before you and your friends came up to me. It was the usual name calling and saying mean things.

I knew that Jake and Mason didn't mean it and put a little hope or happiness into my day But all i could do was sit there and smile to hide the pain that you and your friends were causing.

You and your friend looked so confused when I was smiling instead of crying. I think after a while you, Jake and Mason understood as you had painful look in your eyes but max...

That just made him more angry. You thought it would be funny to pour his Pepsi over my head and threw his pizza at me. The hole cafeteria was laughing and all I wanted to do was run out of there and cry but I didn't.

I saw Jake mouth a 'sorry' to me I just smile at him and walked out the cafeteria to my locker. I got to my locker and started to sob while trying to quickly put all my books in my bag then ran out of school and walked home.

You're probably wondering why I would smile and calmly walk out of the cafeteria like it didn't bother me. We one of the things my mother would say is

'Be strong and kill them with kindness'

It's one of the many things I love about her she was so strong and kind even when she felt down, she would still act strong for me.

I miss her so much.

Well I'll write again soon. your broken girl,
- Sophia