I woke up to my alarm clock. I crushed it with my fist which made it fall on the floor probably breaking. I groaned in annoyance. Why did I set an alarm?!?! I sat up in my bed rubbing my half closed eyes. One of my eyes was open whilst the other one stayed closed. I yawned before getting out of my warm bed deciding to take a shower.
I took a quick shower before picking some comfy clothes.
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I made sure to wear the jacket to hide the scars that were engraved in my wrists. I headed downstairs. I live alone by the way, so no hassles some people say. I get down stairs to the kitchen and look into the fridge at the food. I picked out some waffles that I put in the toaster for a minute before they were nicely golden brown. I took a bite and it tasted nice so I ate them all quickly, licking my fingers after. However, my stomach did not agree as I rushed to the bathroom to be sick. I brushed my teeth to get rid of the taste and decided I just wouldn't eat, because my stomach never liked the idea. It was like my stomach was telling me I was too fat so you shouldn't wat anything or I'll throw it back out.
I picked up my phone from the desk in my room. I checked Instagram and saw some texts from one of my "friends". Her name was Ha-uen but I just decided to call her Hana. She was confident in her self and didn't care if she insulted someone. I liked to say she was quite savage. And for some reason she found me in the crowd of people and picked me to be her best friend. I checked the texts and respond. With my surprise she replied immediately. Was this girl always on her phone?
Hana: Hey Minji!! Have you heard of Bts?! I just found my followers on Instagram talking about them and they send photos to me of them. Must I say they are cute! 🥰
Minji:No I haven't heard of them. I don't really care to be honest . You do your thing and I'll do mine 😒
Hans: Oh come on. Stop being no fun. Please let me show you one Bts video when I come to your tonight 🥺
Minji: And who said you were coming to mine tonight?
Hana: I said I was, now is that a yes?
Minji: Aish, sometimes I can't handle with you
Hana: And that's why you love me 😘💖💘❤️💗💞
I sighed and rolled my eyes at her attitude. I left my phone on the table and checked the time. 7:00 in the morning. I looked at my phone with a small smile gracing my lips. Sometimes, she is the only thing holding me onto the world. Like Gravity. Without it I'll float off. I decide to get some fresh air, so I put on some boots and grab my keys. I also quickly make sure I have a bag over my shoulder full of supplies.
Once I get outside I lock the door to my house and walk down the pavement, feeling the cold wind welcoming me. I push my glasses back that were tilting on the edge of my nose back onto my head. After a few minutes I enter the city and it gets harder to walk due to all the people pushing past. Seeing a coffee shop, I change my plans deciding it's best to get away from the crowd a bit. As I enter the shop a small bell rings indicating a new customer. The cashier looks at me with a warming smile before I walk over with a blank expression. "May I have a caramel latte please?" The cashier nods going off to make my order. I look around seeing the cafe quite empty, only a small family, a office woman and 7 boys wearing sunglasses and masks around a table.
The cashier hands me the latte before whispering something. "I saw you looking at the 7 boys over there, there quite cute don't you think?" I look at her like shes crazy and walk away to a small table. I sip the latte which warms me up. I whip out my phone as I check Instagram and look at Hana's Instagram seeing a new post.
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TheShiningHana: Just Chilling, waiting for the time I can go to my BFF'
23,493 likes.
All the comments were kind and supportive telling her she was very pretty which I agreed with. I could tell she wasn't even trying to look pretty there. I commented down below.
NoHopeForMinji: I still wondering if I told you, you were allowed to come around.
I then put my phone back onto the desk taking a sip of my latte. My eyes get torn to the 7 boys since a loud noise just erupted from their direction. The Waiter seems to have dropped one of the drinks and it spilled on the table and covered most of the boys. I covered my mouth to stop myself laughing. It seemed she was blushing as she put the plate down and grabbed tissues trying to clean it but making it worse. One of the boys shook there head dismissing the woman trying to help. He took a deep sigh before standing up collecting his belongings. Then he motioned the boys to move tables with him. After a while, they all moved to a table beside me. I looked back down at my latte pretending I was never looking.
I heard them discussing about music videos and songs which confused me. Then they mentioned BigHitEntertainment. Soon the word, Idol came out there mouths as they nodded before leaving the shop with a small ring of the bell. I shrugged my shoulders shaking off what I just heard but I was curious. I finished up my latte, grabbed my phone and bag then walked out the store into the cold air. I gave my watch a quick glance finding it was 10:43. My stomach growled as I was pushing through people. It started to get more quiet as I was reaching my house. The wind blew my hair into my face and I tightened the coat around me. Another growl came from my stomach. I looked at it in annoyance. "I know your not hungry! You denied my giving of waffles!" I spoke to it as I spotted my house and ran to it before unlocking the door and entering.
Another growl erupted from my stomach making me clutch my stomach. Fine. I went to the kitchen and sorted through the food finding everything unappealing, My eyes landed on some salt and vinegar crisps so I snatched them for a snack to shut my stomach up. I ate them whilst sitting down on the couch turning on my TV.
Your probably wondering how I'm still living life like normal with all my family gone except my Grandma who lives on the other side of town. It's really because my family was rich until a certain point where they all died or went missing. I have been living of the money they left for quite some time now and I'm afraid it might run out. I may have to start working soon. Also, I'll tell you more about my Grandma. Well, you could say she is different. Her eyes are dull grey and her mind doesn't cooperate like it use to. She seems to be away from the world most the time. In a daydream as I try and gain her attention.
I crunch on the last crisp as I get up from my seat heading to my bathroom. I sigh before pulling out a blade from my draw. I stare at it for a bit. I shouldn't do this, I know Hana would kill me if she found out. But I couldn't help harming myself for being alive. I made one long cut across my arm before putting the blade in the draw shoving it away. I then watched the cut making the blood wash of into the sink. I then put a small bandage over it and hid it with my sleeves again. It wasn't much harm but it was enough to make me happy with myself.
