Insecure (Bts ff Yoongi)

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My mind is a twisted mess, as my heart is cold as stone

The people I meet just back stab me in the end, the evidence are the texts on my phone

Words always hurt but that's not what they say, but do they have a clue

For my life is a burning hell, and my loved ones are all dead too.

Oh what a shame or shocking this life has turned out is what all of you think

But sometimes I see it as my worlds painted black and not a fake world of pink.

School treated me just like how my father threw me out to the road.

And the smile I wear is just a sign for a secret, painful code.

A meaningless life is what I own, and the perfect reality is many twists.

An angry family is what I have, and all they own is swinging fists.

The many words that I've been called, I could wright a thousand lists.

How I deal with the pain? Is not how it seems. As I wright the lists on my wrists.

With a razor in my hand, that I drag along my skin.

The tears roll down my face, as I dispose of my "friendship ring".

The ring I own was so special, but now means nothing at all.

As the friend I owned has let me down and meaninglessly watched me fall.

I believe that's all they used me for as they dropped me down the drain.

Now I stare out to the water calling out, drenched in the pouring rain.

The reflection of myself is broken and fake as the pieces of my heart are shattered.

I looked back at my life and really could not find anything that mattered.

No one cared if I disappeared, not even my family or friends.

After all this life I've had, with no means will mend.

So I call out to all the people I met as my foot steps off the floor.

Then my body helplessly falls through the air, watching as I soar.

My body hits the freezing water, as I drown with no fear.

However, a familiar call of my name is the last thing I hear.

Before Its all goes black.......and it ends, just like that.

Yeet, I wrote this in my private book that I use for notes. I decided I would share for no reason in particalar. Well then.....if you haven't heard, I'm not really into Kpop at the moment. It's weird .I have these moments where I fall into a different fandom, (Youtuber Fandom right now) then I come back to another fandom in like.....a month. So that's why I haven't been writing, too busy watching Jacksepticeye and Markiplier xD. Bai!!!!