I wake up feeling my body protected from the cold by the warm duvet. I snuggle into the duvet and open one of my eyes to see the time was 7 in the morning. I decided it's probably best to wake up so I stretch my arms and pull the bed covers of me. I then go into the bathroom and have a cold shower. Don't judge. I don't deserve warm water or a nice bath. I get out of the shower with my lips blue and my teeth chattering. I ignore it and dry myself of while brushing my teeth and hair. My eyes spot the blade once again. With this, I look back at my wrists seeing the words imprinted in my skin like ink on a page. I smile. I wanted more.
I grabbed the razor and put the point on my skin cutting it open. Dragging it across my pale covering, I created the word "Darkness" and let they blood come out reminding of my tears. I don't cry. So I cut my skin instead so it can cry for me. The blood finally starts slowing down so I put the wrist under the tap sending the cold water down the cut. The water turns a murky red color and soon the cut has cleaned, I put on a jacket over the top so my wrists are hidden under the material. This is my outfit.
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I walk back to my bed, picking up my phone and seeing a text which makes my mood drop.
Hana: BTS FAN MEETING!!! GURL, YOU BETTER NOT BAIL ON ME. YOU PROMISED!!! I'M SO EXCITED. I'M HERE TO REMIND YOU! YOONGI WILL BE THERE
I roll my eyes remembering me saying that Yoongi was my bias even though I had no interest. I was thinking of bailing on her but I don't want her to be hurt. No. No one deserves to be hurt or betrayed. Except me.
I pick up black cap and place it on my head, before heading down stairs to the kitchen. I grab a glass and fill it with some water which I drink instantly due to my thirst. I leave breakfast like normal and exit my house deciding it's a good idea to go outside. I sniff the morning dew air and make my way to a park nearby. I arrive and it's quite quiet which makes me smile a little. There's only a few children running around and there not even playing on the playground equipment. I walk over and sit on one of the swings placing my bag down by my side. I watch the children run around remembering my childhood.
-Flashback-
I took my seat on the swing sniffling due to some mean words spoken to me by a girl named Keeley. I rubbed my eyes getting rid of the tears and I hear footsteps. I look up to see a girl worried. She frowned. "You look awful!" She said and I already feel more tears coming. "I know I'm ugly!!!!!" I scream whilst tears fall down my cheeks. She quickly widens her eyes. "No no no!! I didn't mean like that. You look bad due to the tears. Your actually very pretty!" She says as I sniffle. "My names Ha-uen but you can call me Hana!" I wipe my eyes once more before smiling a little. "Mine's Minji!" We shake hands as she picks me up of the swing. "You want to play with me?"
I look at her and nod shyly. "Come on then, the round-about is empty!" She screams pulling me towards the spinning round about. I smile. "Ok, wait up!" I scream after her chasing her with my little legs.
