love is a mess - jachary

IDLY

01/01/2019

zach focus

after giving it a lot of thought, zach finally decided to text jack to confess about his feelings. boys weren't together because they were with their families and zach was sitting alone in his room, avoiding contact with his family because he was stressed.
he didn't have time to tell jack what he felt for him when they were still seeing each other, hence the reason why he was texting him although he would have preferred to talk to him face to face. his fingers were running on the keyboard of his phone. tapping something and then immediately deleting it.
since he didn't know what to write, he just wrote a short message and went right on the heart of the matter.

zach : i think ive something to tell u

zach :  u know, the day when u kissed me? i realized right after this day that i was feeling something for u

zach : and it wasn't a "i love u like a friend" feeling

zach took a deep breath and clicked on 'send', after what he checked his phone every two seconds, waiting for jack's name to appear on the top of his lockscreen.

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. five minutes.

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. thirty minutes.

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. two hours.

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. five hours.

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. but the thing was that jack wasn't answering.

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01/07/2019

christmas holidays have ended and boys were together again, recording a new song in the studio.
during all that day, jack was acting as if zach did not exist, which hurt the latter deeply. he was really doing anything to not be alone with zach, even if it included doing the dishes or cleaning the whole house.

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the next day

it was ten in the morning and boys were eating their breakfast. everyone was feeling good and excited for their new album, except zach who didn't sleep all night because he was worried. he was having a hard time hiding his mental state.
sometimes, he was trying to have an eye contact with jack, but the latter was not paying attention to him at all. after breakfast, zach finally found a moment when he was alone with jack and took a deep breath, turning to him.
he can't go away, he has to listen to me.

" jack, i miss you a lot. " he starts. " we were having fun and i don't undestand why you stopped talking to me like that. remember that day when you kissed me in front of- "

what the hell is he doing here?!

corbyn popped out of nowhere and asked without letting zach finish " what?!! you really kissed zach??! " the blonde guy was surprised, but when he saw jack's face he quickly added " or maybe i uh... misunderstood? "

" i never kissed him. you definitely misunderstood " jack answered dryly. he was actually lying, but he was that type of people who could do it in a really credible way.

" oh, fortunately. i've already started to imagine some weird things, haha. " laughed corbyn as he left the kitchen as suddenly as he appeared.

" why did you lie, jack? why are you being like that? "  each asked him, disappointed.

" zach, i don't love you. " jack breathed out, avoiding eye contact. after what he came out too, leaving zach completely perplexed and hopeless.

so he kissed me just for fun? thanks but no thanks.