04/21/2019
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why don't we focus
daniel was devastated, slightly losing his sense of hope. basic, zach was already in a serious condition but now - in addition to everything he already had - he got a device which was helping him to breathe. daniel wanted zach to survive, but it was hard to keep hope when his state was getting worse and worse. he really scared the boys the other day, when his heart stopped beating. thank god he didn't die, thought daniel. the doctors told them that this kind of thing could happen again - daniel obviously wished that it won't.
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it was now 04:14 am and jonah was too sad to sleep. he was scared to imagine the band if zach went to die.
usually, the lattest was always there to tell his stupid jokes which he laughed alone at or to make them his daily pranks but now, he was hospitalised and it was really boring without him. i mean, who will i yell at whenever the kitchen is burnt? or when the house is a whole mess?? and who'll steal my coffee?
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corbyn, for his part, was sad for jack, because he noticed how depressive he was. since zach's hospitalization, corbyn haven't seen him smile at least once. even though jack wasn't really nice with zach recently, corbyn knew full well that he loved zach more than everything and seeing him so pale and emotionless was heartbreaking.
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(jack focus)
the lattest didn't get to sleep either but it was already 06:27 am. in his head, it still was 'zach has 80% chances to die' all the time. jack's anxiety earned that level when you just don't care if you sleep or not.
to cheer himself up a bit, he decided to listen to his music. once his earphones found, he starts his playlist and the first song was alan walker's 'alone'. before, jack was listening to this song just because he liked it but now, he realized that the title of this song was perfectly fitting with his situation. what was jack since zach's hospitalization? alone.
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ince it put him in a bad mood, he skipped to listen the next song - which was 'don't leave me alone' by david guetta. but wait-
jack said exactly the same words to zach when he went to see him, the other day. he was wondering why all of the songs he was listening to were making him think about zach.
but there were only two songs. the next one might be a 'normal' song, after all.
jack skipped the song once again and the next song was 'let me down slowly'. this title described jack's mood since zach's hospitalization. here we go again.
he was fed up with his playlist - he couldn't even listen to his music without thinking about zach.
he takes off his earphones and wonders what he could do to occupy himself. ah, i know.
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love is a mess - jachary
Fanfiction" zach, i don't love you. " but there's always a difference between what we say and what we actually feel.
