Should I Use My Heart Or My Head?

The Chemicals Will Bring You Home Again

             Vic's-POV

            Everything is silent to me right now. All I can hear is my heart, but I would rather hear his! I tried to protect him, but I just ended up hurting him. I'm at the hospital right now. I've been waiting for over 5 hours to hear if  Kellin is okay. Nothing. I can't stop tapping my foot. How could I be so careless? Everyone knows you are supposed to look before crossing the street! My arm is  broken,but I want to know how Kellin is doing." God, please don't take him away." I prayed. This was the first time I prayed in a long time."He's so kind and sweet. Please help me."

     

            A moment later, my parents and Kellin's mom came in. My parents were freaking out about my arm. Kellin's mom ran to the front counter. "How's Kellin?!? I need to see him! I'm his mother!" She shouted. She was in tears, but his dad was nowhere to be found.

               At that moment the doctor came in. His name  was Dr. Ryan. He cleared his throat and said,"Kellin is fine. Right now he's resting, but.." I panicked. What's wrong?!? " He's in a coma. The truck hit him pretty hard. There's no telling when he will come to." He finished. My heart filled with guilt. "I'm sorry...." I managed to say. "Vic, it's no- not your f-fault." Kellin's mom said. No matter what she said there was no denying it was my fault.

    

           I ended up staying there. I did the only thing I could do when I was down about something. I went to the front counter and grabbed a pen and a piece of paper.I went back to the lumpy couch and started jotting down lyrics. They were going along well, but I was stuck on one part. I couldn't keep it going. So, I think if I see Kellin I should be able to keep going.

  

            I walked towards his room number. No nurses were really here and if they were there they were either sleeping or working on different floors than the first floor. I walked in with caution. I looked like I was in wonderland or something. I walked in and then closed the door lightly. It was a little dark, but I could still see figures. I walked and kept walking until  something hard hit my leg. Kellin! I tried to find the curtains and when I did I opened them wide. Then turned around to see his beautiful face. I ran towards him. His face was pale, hair was messy, scratch marks on his cheeks and nose. The rest of him was covered, but I can bet you there was more. I was scared. All I could do was tear up and then lightly kiss him on the forehead. Then I said," Kellin, It will be okay." I will stay, make music for him, and then play it for him to listen to everyday. And that's what I did.

 

              After many months my arm was almost done recovering. I ran up to the hospital and ran towards Kellin's room. He was still there laying and with eyes still shut. "Hi beautiful!" I exclaimed. The only thing that responded was his pulse and heart beat. That was good enough for me. I sat down beside him and kissed his healed cheek. "I have a new song for you. Listen." I sang a couple verses with lyrics like,"cause I don't want to leave you without you buried by my side," and," I'll chase away the darkness." Once I finished I looked at him. I wish he would wake up right after one of my songs. This isn't a fairy tale though. I know one thing. Once he wakes up I'm telling him how I feel. I smiled to reassure myself. "Well, I'll see you tomorrow."I started to walk towards the door. I stood there in the doorway for a minute then said," I love you, Kellin." Then shut the door.

               After a year I decided to do something special for him. I ran to the hospital with white and red roses in my hands for Kellin. I loved seeing him everyday. One day he will wake up and he'll hear my songs. I ran into the hospital and as I was greeted by nurses and doctors, like always, Kellin's nurse stopped me. She looked sad and nervous."What's wrong?" I asked. "Vic. It's about Kellin. He's been..." I started to freak out. I ran past her before she could finish. I saw Kellin's room and ran straight for it. I bursted through the door and nothing. Kellin wasn't there. What? Kellin's nurse came in and said," Kellin got transferred to a different hospital and the family moved. I don't know where they are. I couldn't even tell you even if I wanted to. I'm sorry Vic." My heart sank. The flowers and my tears fell. I can't see Kellin anymore.I fell to the floor in shock. Why did no one tell me? At that moment I was weak. I couldn't think. After a moment I got up from the floor, walked out of the hospital, and never went back.