Should I Use My Heart Or My Head?

I Only Have Myself To Blame

Writers note: I hope everyone who is reading is enjoying this as much as I am enjoying writing this. Thank you for reading this. It's my first book and I'm just getting used to the controls X) I'd like to thank Sempiternalkellic for making my cover. And check out BullsInTheHotTopic's book. It's good.:)So thank you and enjoy (^_^)/

                                       *4 1/2 Years Ago in Texas*

                  

                   Kellin's-POV

  

              "Vic!" I yelled out. Vic has been getting out of the house more than usually since we got into sixth grade. He always had a taste for adventure and that worries me. I have to go find him.

                    Vic's-POV

               Man! "Wow! You guys didn't put up that much of a fight did ya now?" I announced with a chuckle. " You guys came here to beat me up, but I guess that didn't work out." These stupid 8th graders deserved this. They make fun of everyone, but lately they have had their eyes on Kellin. I don't know why, but I was not going to let them touch or laugh at Kellin! So, I saw that they put a note in Kellin's desk to meet them here. I took it and ran here as fast as I could. Turns out I bet even Kellin could beat them! "So, why are you guys making eyes at Kellin?" I asked seriously. They all looked at each other kinda confused. "You don't understand why?" They asked. Obviously not. Idiots. "It's cause he's gay." One answered. What the hell. I stepped on one's arm crushing it, punched another, and then kicked the third one. "Are You Serious?!?! That's All?!?" I shouted. "Just Cause He Likes A Different Gender?!" I'm super pissed right now. I forgot he was like that. Of course that's the reason. Stupid society and their  expectations. I don't think it's a big deal. Before I could seriously hurt those guys I heard Kellin calling me. "Get out of here now. If you bother Kellin I won't just walk away from that. Got It?!? I told them strictly. They nodded and ran away.

              

                 "Vic there you are! I was jus- What is with those bruises!?!" Kellin yelled. I have bruises? Great. Here it comes.I looked at the ground. " Vic, have you been fighting again?" Kellin asked. I stayed looking at the ground. "Vic!" He said strictly. I looked at him with puppy dog eyes. It didn't work. He looked mad. Yet, really cute. How doesn't anyone find him attractive? Vic stay focused he is talking to you. What is he saying? "Vic, you're not listening I know it." He looked down then up to give me a reassuring smile. "Ok come. Let's get those taken care of." I nodded and we started walking to his house.

                  "Kellin" I mumbled " I'm sorry. For worrying you." He smiled and said, "It's okay. I'm glad you're safe, but what happened. I want to know." I smirked."I got mauled by a bear! Ohhhh it twas horrible. But with the strength of thinking of you I managed it beat it off with my good looks." I said as I posed. I looked over at him. I heard him snickering, but then he went back to serious Kellin. " Fine, Fine I was in a fight. It's not a big deal." I said. He looked at me concerned. "How many were there and what was it about?" Kellin said sternly. I kinda hesitated on the second part. He knows when I lie so no use lying." Three 8th grade guys. They were weak. It was about-" I turned my head." about you." He looked puzzled. Then he put the pieces together. He looked sad. "Kellin, I'm sorry. I told them I doesn't matter if you like guys. They were jerks anyway don't worry about them. You are wonder-" Before I could finish kellin pulled me into his arms forming a hug. I hugged him back. He's so sweet. Is it okay if I fall for him? "I'm sorry Vic." He said as he sniffled. His eyes were red. I just wanted to hold him. I shouldn't have told him. "Don't worry. I like protecting you. I feel like a have a purpose ya' know?" I smiled as I wiped his tears away. We sat there for a while then I went home. To say the truth I didn't want to leave.

                      

                Kellin's-POV

                 My eyes are all red and puffy. I don't like this. I know being gay is weird to some people, but it wouldn't be that different  if I liked girls.Ugh! I'll be fine. Besides I have Vic. He's so nice.I hope one day I could return the favor.

                  School is over and I'm ready to walk home with Vic. Where is he? We are supposed to meet by this tree. Don't tell me he's in a fight again. I don't care what people say as long as Vic is still here with me. I'm going to find him. Wait! Is that him turning the corner.

 

                Vic's-POV

                "You guys! I thought I talked to you about messing with Kellin!" I yelled. Those bastards went to put something in Kellin's locker. I don't know what it is, but I'm fixing to find out."Stop you scaredy cats!" Not the best come back, but I don't care. They then jumped over the railing that lead to the street and ran across getting away. I jumped over and almost tripped. But at that moment a truck was coming. Straight at me. I stood frozen. No. I can't think. I shut my eyes."VIC!" I heard. Then nothing.

                 Kellin's-POV

              Where is he? I looked everywhere! He sure is fast. I know he can protect himself, but still. One day his fights are going to come back to bite him in the ass. Ugh! This is how I first met him. He was fighting some kid in 4th grade! I'm still shocked at how kids are so violent. I broke them apart. Got hit on the hand in the process ,but still broke it up. I took him to the nurses office. He was silent most of the time. I asked why did he fight him? He looked at me straight in the eyes and said, " He hit a girl. I don't fight for fun. I fight when others can't." After that I became somewhat drawn to him. Then we became friends. We talked about our problems, goals, dreams. I trust Vic. I hope we stay friends for a long time. I don't ever want to forget about him.

                 Vic please come to me. You know I hate exercise. After a moment I saw Vic crossing a street I ran towards him smiling. Thank goodness he's ok-.That thought was gone after what I saw in front of him. A truck. At full speed. My heart sank. I ran faster. What am I doing? I can't lose Vic. He's too important. I hopped over the railing. I need him. Vic, I'm sorry."VIC!"

 

                   Vic's-POV

                  I look up and I don't feel any pain except in my right arm. Did the truck miss me? I sat up to see people everywhere. They look terrified. Why? Im okay. I stand up and look down to the left. There's something on the ground. Wait........ Kellin? No....no.....WHAT?!? NO! That was Kellin who screamed my name?!? I ran over to him. His eyes were closed, hair was messy, his breathing was faint, and he is so still. He pushed me out of the way. Why!?! I'm so useless! No I caused this."Kellin ple-ple-ase." I shuddered with tears streaming down my face. "Please don't leave me." My heart broke into so many pieces. I felt numb sitting there beside him. I want him to smile. Please! In the background, you could here the sirens and see the red and blue lights coming. "What am I going to do?"