Should I Use My Heart Or My Head?

I'm Trying To Deal With The Pain

                Vic's-POV

     "So, that's what happened. It's all true. I don't blame you for not knowing. Also, I don't blame you for leaving. When I saw you I remembered something that I wanted to tell you when you woke up, but never had the chance to say. I guess it's too late though." I finished with my head down and with a half smile. I'm glad I told him, but I also felt sad. How's he going to take this? I looked at Kellin. He had his face in his hands. I understand. He feels torn, tired, sad, and confused. I had the temptation to hold him, but I stopped myself. The fact is he doesn't know me. I set my hands in my lap and held onto them tight.

       

                Kellin's-POV

 

        I don't know. I can't remember what happened. Is that even true? He could be playing with me, but how would he know my name? I think I'm shaking and/or sweating. How am I sweating in the cold?!?! How? How did I survive that if it's true? How can someone just walk up to me after four years and say they knew me? Plus, that I was hit by a car?!?! I didn't even know that!

        I remember when I woke up I was in a different place. At a hospital. My mom said,"Honey! You're awake! I know this might be a little confusing, but we moved while you were sleeping. I know it sounds crazy, but we thought having you in the near by hospital would be more comfortable for you while we were unpacking." She ended with a smile and tears. It's not like she was lying I guess. I was technically sleeping. I was confused at first. Like why didn't I wake up while moving, why am I really in a hospital, and why couldn't I remember anything? In the end, I shrugged it off and moved on.

        Now I know. I was hit by a car and was in a coma. This is crazy! Also, I have someone who I was really close to, but don't know anything about him. I feel bad for him. But it wasn't my fault. I had no choice. I wish I could remember.

        We sat there in silence for moments which felt like forever. I was too in shock to speak. I just wanna go home.

             Vic's-POV

        "Look, I'm sorry. I just thought that you might want to know because...", I just stopped. I looked over at him a couple of times to see if he was really broken about this. Of course he was. I understood completely what was running through his head. He hasn't changed. I smiled as I said,"Go home." He lifted his head slightly and looked at me very confused. I wanted him to rest on it . He then stood up and said," Thanks for telling me." Then he paused and looked at the ground."But from now on please don't talk to me." My eyes grew wide. Well, I didn't see that coming. I stood up quickly and before I could speak he walked away. What just happened?