Are You Happy Now? (BEN DROWNED X Bully!Reader)

Chapter 5: I'm Not Happy At All

"Dear (Y/N),

I know that you never intended for me to die. I know you never truly hated me, you were just jealous I chose Jenna over you. As for Madison, well, I can't think of a reason for her to act like that. But I know that it hurts you when you hurt me because you really don't mean it but you can't stop hurting others. It's addictive, like alcohol or cigarettes or drugs. But I know why you lied to yourself about hating me until you believed it yourself. You lied because then it wouldn't hurt as bad. All I wanted from you was for you to admit it. Admit that you do love me and that you feel so bad for causing me pain. And I have a last last question: Will you ever find happiness again?

No matter the answer, I will always love you.

Love,

Ben"

You cried hard. You didn't deserve for him to act like this towards you, all kind. You caused him to die. This isn't something you can undo. This is reality. Not some fantasy. He can't suddenly come back. He's dead and it's all your fault and you can't get him back. You went on Facebook and updated your status before turning everything off, writing down a letter, and travelling to the lake near Ben's house. You walked to the edge of the boardwalk. You wore a pale purple dress with sleeves that reached your wrists with a golden Triforce sewn on the chest and a dark purple pair of flats. You walked off the boardwalk and let your body plunge into the cold watery abyss below.

* * * * *

"Hmm... (Y/N) updated her Facebook status. Let's see what it is," Madison mumbled as she checked out your status.

(Y/N): Dear world, I can't go on. I caused Ben to die. Now I know he actually loved me and that I love him. Knowing this, it's just even more painful knowing that after having him commit suicide. I just can't continue living. If I'm not at school tomorrow, you'll know what happened...

"What the...? She's kidding. I know she is," Madison said aloud. She picked up her phone and texted you.

Madison: Yo (nickname) I saw ur status. U r kidding and I know it

Madison: ... (5 minutes later)

Madison: R u there? (10 minutes later)

Madison: (Y/N) you are kidding, right? (5 minutes later)

Madison: Oh my god. (Y/N) you can't be serious. Oh my god you are aren't you? (Y/N) DON'T DO IT! WAIT. YOU DID IT ALREADY, DIDN'T YOU?! OH MY GOD!

Meanwhile, your mother came back home from work and looked for you. She travelled to your room and saw that your phone received five texts from Madison. She checked them and was slightly confused at Madison's panicking. She then noticed the letter on your desk. She read it and cried.

"To whom it may concern,

I can't live with this guilt. Ben dying is all my fault. He actually loved me and I realized my true feelings towards him. The answer to his question is this: No, I'm not happy, and I never will be again. I'd like to be buried next to him, with the N64 cartridge with the word "MAJORA" on it destroyed. It was his game and, I just can't handle this pain anymore. I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused. You won't have to deal with it anymore and neither will me and Ben. The both of us will be at ease. I'm sorry.

And Ben, I love you so much.

~(Y/N)"