Miraculous Randomness

22. It Happened Last Summer

-Adrienette-

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It happened last summer. I really don't know how. I had only ever imagined her as a friend. A good friend. One of the best I've ever had. But something changed last summer. Maybe it was because my father allowed me to spend more time with my friends. Maybe it was because deep down, a part of me always knew I loved her; I simply refused to admit it because I believed I was in love with someone else. Someone else who finally told me that she was in love with someone else. That made last summer the worst I could remember, ever since the one after my mom died. But it seemed bittersweet to me. It was as if someone was watching over me; reassuring me. Someone out there knew my pain, and they aided me in a way that I couldn't even begin to explain or even comprehend.

She was my friend. A loyal, trustworthy, kind, and empathetic friend. I felt like I could tell her anything without her being judging me. She saw me for who I really was. I thought that all friends were this great; I thought that she was simply a good friend. After all, good friends can hold hands, there's definitely no rule against that.

But then I was confused. There was a new boy in our class, Connor. He walked right into the classroom and strutted around like he owned the place. Alya wasn't at school that day, so he went and sat down right next to her. That shouldn't have been a problem. If she was just a friend, why was that such a problem?

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It happened last summer. I really don't know how. I had only ever imagined him as a friend. A good friend. Chat Noir. My loyal confidant and companion. But something had changed last summer. Maybe it was because there were far more akuma attacks that summer—one too many people must've had anything in their life go wrong, what a shocker. Maybe it was because I had finally started to see him in a different way, as more than just a...friend. It was probably mostly because Adrien had become so distant, even more so than usual. But as much as I reminded myself that Chat and I could never be together, and I loved Adrien, I couldn't stop it.

It had been that way for so long; him and I against the world. It seemed that it was the same now, with one small exception. I couldn't contain the growing feelings I had towards that cat.

At first, I brushed it off as a phase. After all, I was looking for anyone and anything to distract me from reality. I was definitely not jealous when he would flirt jokingly with Queen Bee, or when Lila would practically throw herself at him. Why did I feel as if I was the only one who he could flirt with? I didn't like him; no, that was silly. It was simply a phase, something to be gotten over quickly and laugh about later.

But that didn't happen.

The summer ended. It was halfway through the school year when I finally realized that my feelings had not gone away, they'd merely intensified. I remained in a state of shock for quite some time. This eventually became panic, which eventually faded into slight acceptance. I still don't actually know how I feel about Chat, nor Adrien. I wish that there was some way that they could be the same person, so I wouldn't have to go through this mess.

The obvious choice would be to tell Chat how I feel. He clearly had feelings for me...or did he? I could never tell. I always wondered if his flirting was simply a part of his personality. And even if he did have feelings for me, he didn't have feelings for me. He had a crush on Ladybug, not the girl behind the mask. He had a crush on the confident, strong, independent defender of Paris.

In an ideal world, I would already know how Chat was so I could get myself out of this. But that would be far too simple.

One day, I'll tell him. Both of them. But that day definitely isn't today.

Or tomorrow.

It'll happen.

Eventually.

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Yay!! Short little update because I'm working on some other stuff right now. I feel like this is really dramatic and repetitive but oh well...

I've been watching season 3 and I just saw Oblivio...let me just say, I have never been so excited or so frusturated.

~HermioneObliviates