GUESS WHAT BITCHEZZZ IM FINALLY OVER MY EX! Read if you want but its just me ranting about why im over him so ye ye.
So I started thinking about it and I realized that my ex wasn't that supportive of me like I was for him. Like, he was in marching band and I went to EVERY HOME GAME (exept for one because I was sick), but when I had any event, he didn't even bat an eye. Like, Choir concerts "I don't like choir or churches so im gonna pass", Gig at a resturaunt "I don't like eating in public", Soccer game "I don't like sports". I mean come on, I don't like football games, I don't understand them. At home games I tend to wonder around and talk to my friends but even then I excused myself from my friends to watch the same half-time performance, EVERY DAMN TIME. But he's just 'too good' for that stuff though. I honestly don't think I loved him, I think that I just loved the idea of having a boyfriend that cared. I mean, I loved him at first but then started thinking about breaking up with him but I was scared that he'd do something to himself because he was always saying stuff like "Without you im nothing" and "I wouldn't be here if it weren't for you" (referring to he would've killed himself if I didn't come into his life) but he just didn't really support me. I will never forget when I got a solo in Choir and went to tell him because I was sooo proud of myself and he just blankly said "cool" and walked away. About 8 months into the relationship I knew deep down that I didn't care that much about him in a romantic way anymore but he didn't neglect me like my ex did and I was in love with the idea of having a boyfriend that cared for me. I didn't really put myself out there for him after that and then he lost interest, which I think is because he only like me for my body which is a real jackass pig face move.
I was just going through my camera roll and deleting the pictures that I hadn't deleted and I didn't cry, I think that's how I knew I didn't care anymore. I only cried when I saw a picture of Baymax because THE FUCKING MONSTER THREW BAYMAX AWAY AND IM FUCKING PISSED AND MISS MY BAYMAX MORE THAN MY EX AND IT IS HONESTLY SAD.
Aaaaand, I have a few crushes (I like a particular one more than the others tho but im not gonna say who)(also changing names for privacy reasons)
I has 3 crooshes
1. Alexander, but he is 2 of my friends' ex so I don't want to date him and loose my friendships with them
2. Jack Frost, but one of my bestfriends has a crush on him and he's shorter than me. Buuut, he's friends with my ex and has Abs
3. Kyle, but due to rules I cant date him and I doubt hed date someone like me anyways, hes also my bestfriends bestfriend and my friendship with her is more important.
So yeah, im kinda screwed in the boy department but hey, that's fine. Yeet Lord out.
