The One I Love [COMPLETED]

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

(Jennifer's Point Of View..)

Di ko na napigilan ang sarili ko na umiyak dahil sa nangyari kay Rain.

It's my damn fault! Ako ang may kasalanan! Bat pa kasi ako nagmahal?! Why?!

Nandito ako ngayon sa hospital kung saan naka-confine si Rain. Isang sampal agad ang inabot ko kay Kellie na kinaladkad ako papunta sa Rooftop.

"Kapal ng mukha mo ah! You know what! Ikaw ang may kasalanan neto kay Rain! She doesn't deserve to be hurt! Ang bait niya sayo, pinagtatangol ka palagi pero ito ang ginanti mo sakanya?! Damn it! Akala ko ba kaibigan ka namin?! We treated you as our bestfriend but you treated us like we are nothing to you! Especially to Rain!" Nginitian ko siya kahit patuloy na kong umiiyak.

Wala na ba akong ibang role dito kundi umiyak?

"S-Sorry.."

"Sorry ba kasi ikaw ang may kasalanan tama ba ko? Sorry ba dahil di mo kayang hindi mahalin si Jett? Sorry ba dahil nasaktan mo kami? Sorry ba dahil sarili mo lang iniisip mo? Sorry saan?!"
She shouted.

"Sorry for everything! Sorry for loving Jett and hurting you guys! Especially for hurting Rain! Sorry okay? Sorry!!"

"Masakit mawalan ng boyfriend pero trust me, mas masakit ang mawalan ng kaibigan!" She left me..

"SIGE NA AKO NA MAY KASALANAN! OKAY NA KAYO?! GINUSTO KO BA TO?! GUSTO KO LANG NAMAN MAGING MASAYA AH! ALL I WANT IS TO BE HAPPY AND NOT TO HURT SOMEONE! BUT HERE I AM! HURTING SOMEONE AND BECAUSE OF ME THEY ARE SUFFERING!" I shouted and cried... 

Pumunta ako ng ICU at umupo sa upuan sa gilid ng kama ni Rain na nanghihina. Comatose siya ng dahil saakin! Dahil saakin!

I'm guilty! Really guilty! Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya ng mabuti.

"Sorry Rain kung ito ang ginanti ko sayo.. sorry dahil ako ang dahilan kung bakit ka nasasaktan ng sobra, kayong lahat.. sorry ah, I just want to be happy, I deserve to be happy naman right?"

"Alam mo naman siguro na hindi natin kayang pigilan ang sarili natin na magmahal diba? Sorry ah.. Kulang pa ang sorry tama ba ako? Hindi ko gusto na masaktan kayong lahat.." I said and left the Room at pumunta sa Waiting shed.

Umupo sa tabi ko si Tim na umiiyak..

"Sorry.." I said. Napatingin siya saakin at nginitian lang ako ng tipid.

"Sorry? Sorry to hurt your feelings but I got to say this to you.." huminga muna siya ng malalim bago nagsalita uli.

"Jennifer wag mong isipin na hindi ka na namin kaibigan okay? Kasi kaibigan ka pa rin namin kahit ikaw ang may kasalanan.. i understand that you're alone and lonely and Jett is the only guy who can make you feel very happy and special and we understand that you need Jett too.. but here's the thing.. in the first place dapat di mo na siya nilayo saamin kasi nasasaktan kami eh, especially Rain. You know how much we love Jett right?" Tumango lang ako..

Alam ko naman iyon eh.

"Sorry to say this but ikaw nga talaga ang may kasalanan.. but I'm not really blaming you for loving Jett cause we have one friend who's in love with Jett when were in the Junior high school.." Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. Ha? Sino naman??

"Gaya mo, kailangan niya din si Jett, Si Jett lang kasi ang nagpapasaya sakanya..  but unlike you, di niya nilayo saamin si Jett noon kasi alam niyang masasaktan kami.. naging close namin siya at naging kaibigan namin.. She is an ordinary girl and you know what? I like her.." sino bang tinutukoy niya? And what is he saying that he loves that girl?

"Sino ba tinutukoy mo?" I asked..

"Si Kellie.." nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. Napatingin siya saakin at tinignan ako at nginitian.. "don't tell her okay? She doesn't know but she will know soon.." Tumango na lang ako at niyakap siya..

"Jennifer, kailangan mo lang si Jett just like Kellie.. let's say that you love him 20% but 80% you need him.. mas lamang ang kailangan sa mahal.. at ang kailangan ay naalis ang pagmamahal.."

Truth hurts nga naman! Yeah right!

"Alam mo bang kailangan ni Kellie si Jett noon? She's saying that she loves him but the truth is she just need him.. Just like you.." pinakinggan ko lang siya..

"Naala ko pa yung sinabi ni Jett kay Kellie noon para mapanatag si Kellie.. he said "Kellie I'm just here to make you happy, no worries.. I can still make you happy and let you feel that you're special, which is true... you're special in my eyes and in our friend's eyes.. I'm here for you.." then after that, they broke up and Jett is always keeping his words that he will make Kellie happy and feel special.." aww grabe naman yun...

"One last thing.. maybe you should talk to Jett.. cause I'm pretty sure that he will make you happy even if you made mistakes.. iba kasi si Jett eh.."  umalis na siya..

Panahon na ba para ako naman ang mag-let go?

Is it time for me to make the same sacrifice Rain did to make someone happy?

Mahal ko nga ba si Jett o sadyang kailangan ko lang siya?

Tim's right.. mas kailangan ko si Jett! Kailangan ko lang si Jett pero lets just say that mahal ko rin naman siya...

Hayss..

I think it's time..

End of Chapter 23

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