Broken Love - Broken Pieces

Ch. 3 Insecurities

Charisma,

Sunday Morning

I woke up exactly at 8 am, My Mom , little brother and I were going to church this morning.

After getting up and doing my morning routine , I went through my closet and picked out a peach colored dress , it wasn't short or long it stopped at the end of my middle finger. The dress was fitted but not necessarily tight with a sweet heart neck line and straps that were semi thick.

After slipping on my dress, I went into the bathroom combed out my hair and put it into a high bun which took a while.

After I sprayed myself with Victoria Secret Love Spell, My best friend hates the smell but I love it.

"Charisma, Fè Vit (Hurry Up) ! " my mom yelled.

"I'm coming ! " I yelled back.

I know she gon' miss me if I do decide to go to Atlanta. I slipped on my nude peep toed heels that showed off my manicured toenails which were cocaine white. I grabbed my gold clutch along with my bible then headed down stairs.

I assumed, My little brother and mom was already waiting for me at my car.

Ask me why we had to take my car , The world may never know.

I locked the door behind me, and soon we were off to the church.

We ended up, getting there at 9:45 am , which means the lecture was done & the actual service began. Ma' wasn't to happy about that but she'll be alright .

She sat in the front along with my little brother. I on the other hand decided to sit in the middle row with Sister. Carrey. She greeted me with a warm smile.

As the church service went on, I was feeling the spirit of God. I watched as my mom clap her hands and sing her heart out to

Kirk Franklin - Hosanna. Others did the same.

After thirty minutes of a good turn up, We all got ready for Pastor Johnson.

"Is everyone feeling the blood of Jesus this morning ?" Pastor Johnson said

"Yes!" Some of the men said.

"Amen!" The ladies yelled.

"Alright,Alright" He said chuckling.

Everyone got seated

"Today, I wanted to talk about Insecurities and Self Worth "

" Now a days , we tend to let are insecurities get the best of us . We don't see our self worth , Teens mostly . Us Adults we over came them well some of us to say the most . Am I right ? " He asked

"Amen" A few people said.

"This is for the teens, You guys are at an age where the devil will attack you in the worst way! you may not even realize it . The spirit of Jezebel and Lucifer is very much real . I once met a girl well she always lived down the block from me and she knew I was pastor and she came by my house once day and Asked for me. We sat on my porch and she told me her name and how something was eating her alive. She felt as if God hated her . I asked her why ? She said, Here I am Fourteen years old and already had an abortion.

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and how her mother always said if she had a baby out of wedlock, she's out the house for good.

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She broke down after , then she continued to tell me how she couldn't bring a baby into the world at this age and how she didn't even know who the father was . She felt as if God hated her for not staying pure then taking an innocent life.