Mikey POV
What does he mean by he can't do it anymore? What is he trying to say? If he is saying what I think he is saying then I don't understand why he feels that way. He shouldn't feel that way. He's perfect and he has so much worth in this world so he deserves to be here and anyone who tells him he doesn't is stupid and doesn't know what they are talking about
"I'm fed up of feeling this way. It's getting so hard for me to live like this and get through life. I'm really struggling and I don't know how much longer I am going to be able to deal with all the shit I get from people and the way I am feeling all of the time..." he continued saying
I felt so bad that he felt that way because he didn't deserve it, whatsoever. He was such an amazing person inside and out and he didn't deserve to feel like this whatever anyone said or however he feels
To try and comfort him, I pull him into a hug and started to play with his hair. I whispered reassuring words into his ear telling him that he would get better and that I was here to help him if he needed it. I started to feel him start to calm down. He looked at me, with tears starting to stream down his face and said
"I don't deserve you. You are too good to me, you help me too much and I am never able to repay you. I don't deserve the way you treat me or the way you comfort me. I have been a shit friend to you in the past. You don't have to comfort me if you don't want to. I don't deserve your love and affection"
I felt so useless in that moment because partly what he was saying is true. He hasn't been the best friend to me that he could be but in this moment of time that was the last thing on my mind. I knew that right now I just needed to be the best friend I could be and support him in his time of need
"I know we've had our ups and downs but we are still best friends, aren't we? Nothing has changed our friendship. And don't you ever say that you don't deserve me because you deserve me then I deserve you. So come here and let me hug you. You need to sleep so start to settle down and get ready to sleep, okay?" I said genuinely meaning everything I was saying
He nodded his head and started to lay down and get comfortable
I don't know what came over me in that moment of time but it just felt like it was the right moment to do it. So I started to lean in closer to him and close my eyes until suddenly my lips were touching Andy's
