The wolves are at my door~ Oliver Sykes fan fic

chapter six: Leave me alone !

Taylor Momsen P.O.V.

-location: Gerards house-

I enter Gee's house with Oli, Kellin, and Gerard of course. We decided to all get our homework done together after school. I'm still feelings a bit emotional and weird since I told the others what happened to me.

They think your useless and nothing. They don't want to be friend with you anymore.

The voice in my head says.

You're stupid and deserved what happened to you. You whore.

SHUT UP! I scream and cover my ears.

Everyone looks at me. I stare at them and just walk up the stairs to Gerards room.

I hear mumbles and whispers like

"What's wrong with her?"

"What just happened?"

"Did we do something?"

Great, they think I'm crazy now. Gerard knows already why I did that. I of course told him about the voice in my head. My conscious.

Gerard and the others enter the room as well, while I just sit on Gerards bed and take out the homework I have today for Math.

Everyone's silent and just doing their homework as well. Gerard is sitting next to me and kellin is laying on the floor while Oli is sitting on the chair with his homework out on the desk. Oli looks at Gerard and smiles a bit. Like a flirty smile. Well at least that's what it looked like. Whatever. I look at Gerard and raise an eyebrow at him. He just shrugs and blushes.

Well obviously somethings going on between them. I know for a fact they must like each other.

I finally break the silence..

"I wasn't telling you guys to shut up.." I say still writing my math equations.

They all look up at me and Kellin's the first one to ask

"So why did you say it?"

I feel myself not being able to talk or explain myself. I try to say something but the words just won't come out.

Just say it idiot. The voice says.

Gerard notices me and then speaks up.

"Its a voice in her head that says bad things to her at times." he explains.

I look at everyone's face to see their reaction. To my surprise, they're actually okay with it.

"That's totally okay." Kellin says.

"I understand." Oli says.

"We all get that at times." he continues.

Kells looks up at me and then motions for me to come over to him.

I shake my head in disapproval, and mouth out "no sorry." I continue my homework.

Ugh why do I have to be such a bitch.

He mouths out "please?"

I roll my eyes and gives in. I go sit next to him.

"What?" I say to him.

"Can we talk.. like in private.. ?" he looks at me.

"Um okay I guess."

Kellin Quinn's P.O.V.

I grab Taylor's hand and I lead her out of the room and start to talk.

"I um I like you.." I say to her.

She looks surprised but confused at the same time.

"Why? I mean .. why would you like someone so useless?" she says to me.

I widen my eyes.

"You are not useless!" I say to her.

"You're perfect and beautiful. Not to mention talented at singing." I say.

"How did you know.. I sing ?" she asks.

"I overheard you the last time we all spent the night here." I explain.

"oh.." is all she says.

I wait with hope in my eyes that she'll say she likes me too.

"I don't like you kellin and I never will."

my heart just drops. I feel my face turning hot and my chest feels like someone just stepped on it. I start to tear up but she doesn't notice. So I just walk away.

I can't believe she would say that so harshly.

I walk quickly back in Gerards room and grab my book bag and homework. I rush out of the room and down the stairs.

"What's wrong?"I hear Oli yell from the room to me.

I just keep walking and slams the front door. I walk outside and just put in my headphones to drown out my thoughts.

My heart is hurting. I walk faster and finally get my house. I stop in front of my house and breathe in. I unplug my headphones. All I can think about is metal.. a cold metal blade..

(A/N: next chapter is a trigger warning! just letting you guys know.)