The wolves are at my door~ Oliver Sykes fan fic

chapter nine: I'm a mess you wouldn't like me

(A/N: Trigger warning with self harming)

Gerard P.O.V.

I'm glad to see Taylor happy. Kellin really loves her and I totally support their relationship. Taylor needs that.

Someone to make her happy and fix her broken heart.

Something I need..

After what Oli said about liking me, it was pretty surprising. I didn't know how to feel about that. I mean he's super cute and ... pretty hot, and handsome.. but what if he can't handle me? I'm a mess. The thoughts in my mind are terrible. I've been suicidal fot as long as I can remember. Lets say something bad happens, I'm a weak person..
I don't handle those kinds of situations correctly. It usually ends badly.
I would either cut, or if I feel like its a terrible situation to me then I would .. you know. Or at least try.

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Oli Sykes P.O.V.
Location: After school at the Mall

We're all at the mall food court. Taylor is sitting next to Kellin, and I am sitting next to Gerard.
I told Gerard that I like him. This is the first time I actually tell a guy my feelings.
Yeah, I've had crushes but I'm more comfortable with myself, and being this way.

The only thing is I hope he likes me.

"So are you two a thing?" I say looking at Taylor then Kellin. They both turn red, Kellin looks at Taylor, almost as if he doesn't know what to say. She nods a bit and says "Well.. I mean something like that." She smiles at him and he smiles back brightly like a kid who has just been told his little crush likes him back.

"I'm glad." I say, then looks at Gerard.
Gerard looks back at me and I look down a bit sad. He nudges me a bit, telling me to go with him somewhere. I nod. I would go anywhere with him.

We head out of the food court and start walking towards a door that leads to the mall parking lot.

"Why are we um here?" I ask him.
He looks away then sighs. I guess this is the part where he tells me he doesn't feel the same way.

"I- li-" he grabs the back of my neck and cups my face, then starts to lean in..
"You want to?" I say, my heart pounding.
"I like you as well Oliver." He then presses his lips against mines, kissing me slowly.
This is literally my first time kissing a boy, I think to myself.

He slips his tongue in my mouth slowly, once I allow him to. He holds on to my hips with his other hand. Our bodies pulled close together. I don't want this to end.
He pulls away, a bit out of breath. We look at each other smirking. He wraps his arm around my shoulder and we head back to the food court.

Everyone looks at us.
"SEX HAIR!" yells Kellin. I quickly fix my hair. Taylor nudges him giving him a serious look with her eyebrows raised.
He pouts at her and whispers "sorry."
Gerard laughs looking at me. Taylor giggles. I feel some sense of relief that Gerard actually likes me back.

This will be alright.