For Someone.

The Aftermath.

We didn't block each other for the moment being on social media, but we did remove our relationship information on our bios, and pictures of us on our accounts. I was the first one to post something related about our break-up with a story post on Instagram saying a quote from The Beatles song, "For No One." Specifically, the line, "She takes her time, and doesn't feel [like] she has to hurry, she no longer needs you." She then posted something herself on Snapchat, showing her sad, captioning it, "This really does hurt." Or something similar to that. It wouldn't hurt her for long, as you'll see in a bit.

One of my good friends messaged me after a while after seeing that I've been putting up on my story on Instagram account. Yeah, I posted things that signified that we're apart. It was just quotes and songs that were about heartbreaks. To which, I felt more than heartbroken. It felt... off, I can sense it. Maybe it was something I saw coming.

He wanted to know what happened, and I didn't give him the full answer until a day or two after. I was just too withered to even explain. All I said was that she wasn't happy with me anymore, and left it at that. He even called me after a bit, but I was still sobbed out of my face. He wanted to know a bit more, and I did let more info out, but only a sliver. I just wanted to be left alone, and I told him that. He agreed, and hung up politely. He even felt bad for me, and he doesn't feel the sad emotions a lot of the time. I politely said goodbye to him as well, and I was left alone, while I tried to watch videos afterwards. I just couldn't seem to cheer myself up. Sad songs it is then. I let the tears roll down my face, until I felt satisfactory. Needless to say, it lasted a long time for me to feel satisfied.

After that day of sadness, I felt like staying on my room still, because I still didn't get over it. And yeah, the crying came out uncontrollably. I just let them be. Alongside with the sad music, I decided that I can change it up a bit. Question is, what music should I listen to now? I then came to a conclusion. I decided to listen to The Beatles. Old, but very relevant to this day and it's revolutionary for the time being. Plus, it's good music. I started relistening For No One, because I'm dealing with a breakup. Ahhhh.... The relevance the song has within it is just refreshing, and made me cry due to the fact that I was living the heartbreak. I then listened to another song by them, and it slowly but surely made me feel better. It then became a whole ton of songs. While my Guitar Gently Weeps, Let it Be, Blackbird, Hey Jude, the list goes on and on. I just couldn't stop listening to The Beatles. It's like, they get me. They understood what it meant to lose someone that you cared for. They understood that in hard times, we do need motivation. They understood that there will be something better later on. They understood that I'm going through a hard time, and I should make it better. I'd just wish I would be friends... with all of them. Great thing I'm going to one of the surviving Beatles' concert! Paul McCartney, here I come!

My friend then sent me screenshots of him asking, to my now ex, what did she do, and he told her that she lost a good boyfriend. She gave him a neutral response of "I know" with other things said. I still have those screenshots, by the way. He then responded back, rudely, "You don't care," alongside with other things. He would then block her, and told me that she didn't care about me, and she used me. Of course, an assumption that he made, which will makes sense later on. I thanked him for the work he did, but I told him that this was the last thing I needed. I don't want to spread negativity. I never wanted to. I would then show the screenshots that he took to my sister, and she said that I had one of the most realest friend ever, and one that actually cares for me. Maybe that's what I really needed.

Another one of friends saw what I was posting, and got that there was something bad happening to me. He messaged me saying what's wrong, and I replied that I broke up with her, and told him the partial story. He felt bad for me as well, and wanted to cheer me up. His cheer up proposal was that we'd hang out sometime. I said I would like to, but not today. Plan didn't fall through. Spoiler. But I did appreciate it.