Who Do You Love|| 5SOS

Luke: This Shit

Maybe I could run away. Let my visa expire. Become a bum on the street. Everyone would forget about Luke fucking Hemmings. Nobody would even fucking care. My two best friends are fucking each other behind my back. This shit is fucking crazy.

Ash Ketchum
Luke come back right now or I swear to god....

Mike and Ike
Dude, come on. We have a show.
I know you're upset but...
Just come back please.

The Biggest Asshole EVER
You can be pissed at me all you like dude but don't let the fans suffer because of something Kira and I did.  

Kira
Luke, please don't do this.
Please come back.

I couldn't bring myself to change her name in my contacts but I definitely could change Calum's. The two of them must have told Michael and Ashton about their fucking affair. How else would they know that I was upset? How else would they be able to explain why I ran away? 

Two months. Two fucking months according to Kira. How long did it take them to start... I pinched the bridge of my nose and squeezed my eyes shut, trying not to imagine the two of them fucking in Calum's hotel rooms or on the tour bus. "Would you like another shot buddy?" I opened my eyes and looked up at the bartender, zoning back into the music and drunk singing of the men at the end of the bar. It was only around 7 but those guys looked blackout drunk already.

"I uhh... Yeah, thanks." I said. The guy took my empty glass and went to the other side of the bar to grab a fresh one. 

When I had ran away from the stadium, I had sprinted out into the streets of New York. Fortunately I had my phone and my wallet with me so as soon as I stopped to catch my breath, I looked up where I was, hailed an Uber and had them drop me off at the nearest bar. I was only around two or three miles away from the Stadium but that's like ten minutes away in New York traffic. If I was going to head back there, I might as well walk. 

Two months.

Fuck I can't get over how casually Kira had said that. Only two months. It's only been two months. That means they've been sneaking around behind my back for almost the entire leg of the American tour. "Here you go." The shot was placed in front of me and I wasted no time in drinking it down. I'd had three at this point but I probably wouldn't feel it anytime soon. I had eaten food, granted it was greasy pizza, but the alcohol had something to soak on. 

"I've always known I couldn't trust them." I found myself saying out loud.

"I'm sorry, what was that?" The bartender asked. He was cleaning a glass with a towel. Why do bartenders always seem to be doing that?

"My girlfriend and her best friend. I just found out they've been fucking behind my back." The bartender pursed his lips.

"That's rough buddy."

"You're telling me." I grumbled as he walked away to tend to another customer. 

That smug ass looking smirk Calum was wearing when he proclaimed that he and Kira had been fucking felt seared into the back of my mind. Was I boring? Did I bore her? Why didn't she say something? Why did she have to go fuck her best friend? What kind of person does that? I thought Kira was better than that. 

As I was about to call the bartender to give me another shot, a thought hit me. That's why Kira and Calum have been fighting. Calum probably told her I was gong to propose and Kira panicked and Calum probably gave her an ultimatum and... I can't believe she would choose him over me. That's literally always been my biggest nightmare, that Kira loves Calum more than she has ever loved me. 

Good to know I wasn't just a paranoid boyfriend. 

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I had exactly thirty minutes until the concert and I still hadn't decided if I wanted to stay in this bar and get blackout drunk or head back to the stadium and confront everyone. Kira has probably been crying ever since I left. Or... At least I hope she has. I hope she cares enough about me to cry when I ran off. I didn't exactly stick around to see if she did though.

I spun my fifth shot glass around in my hand, still debating. The texts on my phone had only doubled in size. Most of them were from Michael and Ashton now though. I think Kira figured that if I was going to answer anyone, it would probably be one of them and not her. She's only partly right.

I want to talk to her. I want to get her side of the story but I refuse to fucking talk to Calum. Just the thought of seeing him when I get back to the stadium makes me want to fucking kill him. I don't know why I'm so angry at him though. It's not like Kira didn't have a hand in this affair but... I had told Calum I was going to propose. He knows how much I love her and he took her away from me. I know Kira and my relationship hasn't been the best these past couple of months but I thought we could get closer on this trip, get back to how things used to be when we first started dating but then... Neither of us really wanted to spend time around one another. 

Maybe I should have seen this coming.

I was distant. I let Calum take her out to  do all the fun touristy things in every state. I only went with them out of spite when I go a little suspicious and I was always pushing her to come to clubs with us and do things I wanted to do... Maybe some of this is my fault as well. My phone buzzed with a new text.

Kira
I

know I let you down Luke and I'm sorry. But I know you and I know you won't let your fans down so please... Come back.

I ordered another shot from the bartender and asked for the bill. "You gonna go confront your girl?" He asked as I handed him my credit card.

"Something like that." I murmured. 

"Well... Good luck." He said as I signed the receipt and handed him a 20 dollar tip. He nodded his thanks as I headed out the door. Guess I should start walking. 

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"We should have canceled the concert." Our manager was saying. "I knew it was a bad idea to let the Aces go on ahead and play. What are we going to do now? It's ten till and Luke still isn't here and.." A stage handle spotted me and shouted,

"He's here! Luke is back!" There was a flurry of motion a small mob following me as I walked towards my bandmates, my ex-best friend and ex-girlfriend. Kira's eyes were rimmed red and puffy and she had been chewing her nails by the look of it. She was staring at me with wide expectant eyes but I didn't stare at her for long and I didn't even bother looking at Calum.

"I'm here. Let's do this." I said. I guess I could just go on in these damn clothes. It didn't really matter if I was out of wardrobe. 

"Luke.." Calum said, stepping towards me.

"I swear to god if you fucking touch me or talk to me this entire concert I will fucking kill you." Kira burst into a fresh wave of tears and I cringed listening to her cry. Someone handed me my guitar and I ground my teeth as the lights for the stage dimmed and the crowd screamed. Ashton touched my shoulder lightly and spoke to everyone as he said,

"Let's just forget about what happened for two hours please. The three of you can talk when this is over." I shook away his hand and without them, I headed up to the stage.