Deep poems with rhymes

scream with my mouth closed

keep a straight face and don't cry

keep your breath in, maybe you'll die

but I'm already drowning, drowning without water 

just know that they will never accept you as a daughter

I imagined myself dead and slaughtered 

everyone else can go on without being bothered

in the end, I chose this pain

in my time, the only choice was pain

I understand that my poems will never be understood

my thoughts can scare you, as it should

I write this minutes after I was spat on the face

id rather be anywhere but this place

carved on my head is the word disgrace

what I'm going through I can't explain

so I allow being sucked into my own hurricane

they think ill learn by abuse

funny how I'm still stuck again with the same excuse

let them hit me I have nothing to lose

to become different among all, my body refuse

no physical or mental method could save me now

I want them to understand, I just don't know how

she said I'm a devil behind that angel face

no one is an angel in my case

they are all devils, but you just don't know it yet

because right now you think I'm the only devil you've met

this isn't like the old days all nice and clean

 you don't know or see what I've seen

I appreciate the love and care you have given me

I'm sorry that you will never understand me

but I promise I will try to hold on for your sake 

ill go through hell and deal with this heartbreak

so that all you've given wouldn't go to waste

ill face the music and go through the after taste

Ill live in the house with all the hatred

just to see you smile at what you've once created

I promise to be the pearl in the seashell

covered with my uniform so they can all tell

so that he wouldn't get the chance to taste hell 

but until then ill scream with my mouth closed

and let all my past be disposed