I'D GIVE IT ALL

chapter 22

Jimin had a lot to think about as he sat down in that stall.

If he was gonna keep jungkook safe from his fathers psychotic wrath he'd have to make sure jungkook doesn't follow him and the only thing jimin could think about was to hurt jungkook emotionally while he was still here so jungkook would forget about him and live a stress free life without him.

Jimin grimaced at the thought of jungkook moving on without him as well as with another even though jungkook DAMN well deserve it,he was still very much not okay with it but he also very much had no fucking choice...so he felt helpless

That night when they came home jungkook ranted on about how this one guy got it right to almost burn water and set the cloths on fire...

just how tf didn't he know about this seeing as they were in the same place but it was probably because he was on the phone with his father at the time...anyway.

So jimin sitting cross legged watched as jungkook wailed about the room going on AND ON AND ON AND ON until suddenly jimin felt that he didn't deserve to hear any of this given what he was about to do to jungkook...even if he had no choice

" jungkook" he whispered and started sniffling already.

Jungkook stopped talking and ran over to jimin " hey hey what's wrong baby" he said checking if jimin had a fever or something ,jimin just turned his face pushing himself a little further from jungkook " please Don't act so caring jungkook please " jimin said 

" what are yo talking about" jungkook asked confused

"I Don't...wanna be with you anymore " jimin said softly,pulling his knees up.

" WHAT!!..what did someone talk to you, tell me who it is " jungkook demanded

" nobody talked to me its just...I realised that I Don't wanna run and hide anymore " jimin said a little louder this time.

" jimin"jungkook whispered

" and I never had to before...its frustration jungkook, always having to look over my shoulder like I'd get attack anytime of the day I can't do this anymore" he lied he didn't have a problem with any of this as long as he was with jungkook nothing is a challenge

Jungkook couldn't believe his ears so he covered his face with his big hands taking a few steps back" p..please jimin Dont do this to me y..you're my entire world " he pleaded

Jimin was dying on the inside he wished he could just swoop jungkook up in his arms and give him a breathtaking kiss because seeing jungkook like this was killing him.

" well you aren't mine " jungkook immediately froze removing his hands from his face

" what did you just say" he asked in a hoarse tone

" I never loved you and I wouldn't wanna marry you " he said quietly.

"y..you Don't mean that jimin " jungkook said shaking this fingers because he suddenly felt like he couldn't feel them.

He walked straight up to jimin pulling his hands away from his face and looked him straight in the eyes seriously

" look me in the eyes and tell me you Don't love me " jimin lifted his head up slowly before uttering the words

" I Don't love you anymore " jungkook felt beside himself, his heart was slowly breaking and he couldn't understand why Jimin would do this to him.

" I should just leave " jimin said pulling his hands out of jungkooks grasp and gathered up his things

" no don't, its late as it is and uhm" jungkook said silently wiping his face "...I need to think, so I'm gonna go... you can stay " jungkook said, he barely got all the words out before he got up and left the room, locking the door behind him.

Right after locking the door jungkook turned around taking a step back until his back was against the door and slowly he slid down against the door, unknowingly to him that jimin was right on the other side doing the exact same thing.

Jimin held in his facade, not looking as the love of his life walked out the door. As soon as he heard the click of the door being locked he broke down immediately, walking towards the door, he bit down on his fist as he cried so that if jungkook were behind the door, he wouldn't hear him